Weewit Melssa :D

*Ignore the title. I typed it because I was so sure about my Physics :p

Ok, the thing is, i wanted to share this moment with you. Eh wait? I have readers? haha.






This Eid, boleh lah at first, sebab tak beraya sangat, until the next week, some classmates and i planned something, a thing that classmate-teens thingy, we all went for a ride in my car, and two other cars. and three bikes ;p on our way to Puncak Alam, Ainaa's house. Kitorang seakan-akan like race la, dengan Viva Izzat tu. Man, it was like gedegang tergolek, gelak gelak jerit jerit semua lah, oh and Roy burped 4 times :) and thats when i realized i love em so much.

Ainaa's.
Sampai sampai we noticed Ainaa is not wearing her Baju Kurung! i was a bit pissed , hehe (^-^)V tapi okay lah, nasib the food was superb. Selepas makan tu, we all lepak kat Ainaa's lawn, there's a bridge, and seriously, it was very suitable to make a video clip there, so i directed Ameer to sing, and I recorded it. Haha, ape ada hal! Layan jelah! and i dengan tak tahannya, suruh orang lain record kan sebab i wanted to ding along too. Hahahaha, last last tu, buat thumbs up :P Hey, its cute what.


Intan's
Subang somewhere, i dont know ;p , nothing happened here. Her mum cooked Nasi Dagang, time tu kitorang full, tapi Roy juga merasmikan Nasi Dagang tu. Dia makan dgn lemon!

Mel :Eyyy, peliknyeh! :D

Hajar's
Kat sini we all dah start lapar sikit, dia goreng ayam. But before that, Mel tau cite :)

Beeeeeeep, Hajar text Shima.
Korang kat mana ni?

Lama lagi ni nak pergi rumah kau.

Ok ok.


Sebenarnye en, nak tau kenapa Hajar tanye?

Sebab Ayam goreng yang dia goreng tu hangus , pastu dia beli ayam baru, and goreng cepat cepat. And thats why kawan kawan mase we all makan chicken tu sangat panas :)

Haha

Shima's
Crowdy dan banyak Air Soya! :D and saye dapat rambutan from her father. hehe, mekasey Uncle, tau tau je saye lapar. haha. and that time jugak, Bah and his friends datang.


Kenapa cite makin lame makin boring ni? ;p


Bla bla bla bla semuaaaaa.

Dah mlm, kite hanta semua orang balik, but there were still 6 people remain.
Ameer, Fikri, Ayu, Mel, Intan and Hajar.


Suddenly, mel kate dngn kiutnye.

Mel: Pegi bowling boleeeh? ;p
Ameer: Takley la mel, nak hanta dorang kang jam.
Mel : Ala.
Fikri: Ye ah, nak tngok Chelsea lawan Livrpool ni pun satu hal.
Ayu : OHhh, patutlah nak pulang awal! Fikir bola dalam kepale rupenye!
MEl : Ketuk ketuk head seat* Bowling bowling!
Ameer :Ye lah yelah.

Sorry PAS je kite mampu pergi, kite orang Shah Alam :p

ASA we arrived. Emmm, people were watching. Mereka buat muka kurang pasti. Ohhh, I know why. Girls wearing Baju Kurung + Bowling = Makes Sense ke?

Hey, Im going to show you what I got okay, We all main dengan elok je. Didnt trip ^-^V But Intan

haha, Intan's Incident,
Time tu dia like berlagak lah kan, pastu nak baling tu, bola dia terbaling kebelakang. Kikte semua senyap, tapi dia still nak kejar bola dia tu, hahahahahahahahahahahha then gelak la kan, sebab mel bayangkan dia like tengah kejar chicken! hahaha :D




and dah smpai pukul 9.30 malam, kite hantar Hajar, Fikri, dan Intan.

Dalam kereta hanye tinggal Ameer, Ayu and Mel. Mel force Ayu to sit beside Ameer. Kuat gaduh dorang ni. Dorang gado gado gado dan gado lagi :( and mel taktahan sgt, i cant hold my tears. and Nanges , heish, Ayu rase bersalah, when Ameer bole gelak gelak, cilake la :p

Okay, dah pukul 10 ni, kite semua balik dengan selamat, kereta pun selamat, orang yang drive tu pun, selamat jalan, dan juga para penumpang. Saye balik rumah, and rase dah nak demam sebab jalan sakan sgt, a.k.a antibody yang lemah sesangat sangat. Then, some of them sent me some thank you texts saying.

gila Happy hari ni. kalau boleh buat la mcm ni lagi. aku in je :)
Thnks to all of you for this wonderful day.
Seriously, this is vry fun! We should do this quite often lah!
5F power =)

AND I THINK THATS THE END OF MELSSA'A STORY,
AKHIR KATE SHE ACCEPTS ALL HER FRIENDS APOLOGY. :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO YOU GUYS DEAREST CLASSMATES.

A big fat I :)

I can conclude that today is very tiring and happy and end up with tears once again people. Ainaa talked about herself, literally herself, mostly about a guy then. I told her mine too. Hers was appealing but mine was pathetic I can say. I love a guy that loves another girl and wasn't sure if he loves me back.

I called A, and talked to his buddy I, that used to be my ex. All of sudden I wants to have a little chat with me, and play me a song, his band's song. It was sweet, but I can feel that A is feeling uneasy about this, he suddenly ended the call.

I texted him and said, what's wrong? He said, that's my friend that used to be your ex-boyfriend you're talking to, and he's playing a love song to you, how does it makes me feel?

I apologized and begged him not to do something stupid. Yea, a big guy with big arms. What would you expect?

I haven't strap on my talk-a-lot mood lately. and Im sure, I'll buckle up as soon as possible.

Dearly,
Mellsa Amiera

Saye mahu

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kalau anda ada Sorority Life lagi bagus, boleh jadi sisters ;)


saye masih baru, dan ye, saye takde kawan, mostly cousins are my friends right now. nak cari old buddies but end up by suggesting me to add some foreigners that i barely dont know -_-

Kalaulah boleh kan

saye nak semua benda yang saye plan menjadi, like pegi college yang saye nak, first pay nanti nak belanja semua orang yg saye sayang and tak sayang, belikan kereta untuk ayah *fikir betul2 dulu n_n! , kasi duit kat aiman, upah abang suruh duduk rumah je selalu, upah aneem supaya kemas bilik and rumah sentiasa, umpan adi and akeem to dnga cakap mama and semua orang yang lebih tua, and bagi duit belanja kat asha untuk beli gula gula Smarties dia. Hee, daydreaming sangat indah.

other than that, kite manusia just able to plan je, it happpens or not , tu semua kuasa Allah.

*hisap gula gula oren

tapi at the same time kan, lepas dah habis SPM semua, dah dapat results and so on, masuk U or College en, sape nak jaga rumah. Abang dah takde, saye on the way nak pergi. Aiman, tak selalu ada rumah, Aneem kecik lagi nak handle things. Adik-adik pun. sekarang kita depend on Bebik je. tu pun, tak sure because, Mak Tok pun perlukan bebik juga. Mama pun macam tu, saye takut. Saye takut nanti , at a time, ayah akan fed up. fed up dengan perangai anak-anaknye yang macam macam. fed up dengan condition rumah yang bersepah disebabkan anak-anak kecilnya yang nakal. fed up dengan anak-anak remajanya yang ; bila tak dapat sesuatu, nak buat muncung. Hmm, Ahmad Sofiadi pernah kate, kitorang ni terlalu dimanjakan oleh ayah. Yea, semua orang perasan tu, even Alia pun cakap mcm tu.

Op, kejap. Saye rase ni terlalu personal, saye pun tktau kenapa i write about it.

Stop,
Mellsa Amiera

Between men and beasts.

Even bigfoots can express their feelings to their women, i mean, females? erk

Re : Student's life. My student life. Inspired by Raja.

1. All of us would hate Mondays, and get excited on Fridays.
-singing Negaraku, and such. You know, you've been there.

2.I choose my favourite teachers, and subjects, and practicals, and homeworks.
- English, EST, Miss Ili, Pn Zulmazlina.

3. i would go to Ameer when he has his guitar around him, eventually on Thursdays.
-nyanyi jiwang songs, u give me the lyrics, i study it at home :)

4. Each morning I will see people hanging around outside the school compound.
-hisap rokok, maybe that is what they call their breakfast.

5.I would see some minah who wears 'kain gantung' also known as 'banjir'.
-dude, they really want us to check their legs, even hairy ones.

6. Used to be the 'kunci keeper'. but lately, im being so 'malas' and fed up.
-please rate and hate me for being fed up :)

7. Budak lelaki akan hisap rokok pada waktu rehat, even time puasa pun. hish.
- akan ku berkata dalam hati, ape lah smorang nak tunjukkan kat kite? hisap rokok tu macho? pelislah.

8.Examinations , kita akan buat tak tau je, macam study biase, bukan itu ke yang kite semua harapkan?
-saye pun tak sedar sedar lagi :)

9.People, especially girls, who only brings some branded bags, heh, kelaka, cuba bawak plastic Giant , tengok macam mane.
-sekola je kot , ape yang kau orang try nak tunjuk :)

10. Disiplin yang hilang kemana, ke kantin bila bila sahaja. Saye dgn Ainaa suka buat macam.
-semua ni Ainaa yang hasut :) haha

11. Semua nak berlagak berani. Cuba kalau 'keling handsome' tu ada depan mata , semua orang lari.
-Hey orang orang, kenapa lari? :P

12. Competetive dalam class, yang sihat takpe kot, kalau sampai nak menjatuhkan orang lain. -Hmm, ade isi tersirat ke?

13. Jadi diri sendiri, memang susa pun nak cari diri kita, tapi jadi la macam biasa, jangan control2, last last tau jugak saye perangai awak.
-jangan lah mara, kite semua sayang awak, awak tu annoying sikit je :)

14. Seorang dua tu , janganlah tak bertegur sapa, kang dah habis sekola, baru nak rindu, sape rugi, kite masing masing dah la duduk jauh jauh.


Kekeringan idea. Sekian,
Melissa Amiera , 5F 2009.

He makes my day.

entry yang tak payah baca pun takpe

why must you keep on comparing ma? i not going to be like someone im not, totally not. i know i dont always satisfies you. but He created me like this, He sets this attitude for me. Maybe i were never like you, we might look the same, but we're different, i was never as smart as you. i was never the head of a community, only when a teacher is so desperate to pick one. i am never going to be a good cook like you either, why must you ask me to cook when you have another daughter to rely on, or even your sons. i tried to be like you when i was a kid, but suddenly, i grew up slowly, and you keep on comparing me to your friend's children, how does that feels ma? i nver compare you to anybody because i accept you just the way you are. eventhou sometimes you were too protective, and i hated hat, i didnt even say a word, but things change, i realized that i have the rights to speak, i spoke, and u didnt agreed. you'll say, this is right for you, this and that, but why cant i make my own decisions? and i thought, maybe im the only female in your family that is stupid? a girl with average scores, i knwo how you reacted when i got my results, you were not happy with that, you said that you were okay with it, but whenyou say it to other people, you wanted more. i cant give you more than i can afford to give. im not SMART LIKE YOU, MA! or even my cousins, NEVER. and until then, im not able to think what im able to do.deep inside, i really like to make you happy with your messed up condition, but i changed my mind, its hard to forgive and forget what you said.


Menangis bole membatalkan puasa,
Melissa Amiera , name given by MakTok, not you, Ma.

six sweeties :)

Orange ; reminds me of someone who is sarcastic and has all of this enthusiasm to make me feel good. He was all sweet and funny. Once, he sang me a Happy Birthday song by his guitar and yeah his dorm friends sang along too, and when he is on his own, he would always dedicate a song for me. Short, and sweet. He sang me some Barney's songs too! The I love you song? Man,that was history, I mean nobody ever sang for me all sensitive like that. And a few weeks later, he sent a package for me, by hand. I mean by his friend's hand, and his friend's cousin is my schoolmate, physically and mentally shocked at that time, but moving on, i opened it, and awwww, a barney plushie :') and a pouch with a button on it. And letter said that, the pouch was sewn by himself, he uses his bantal busuk cloth,and he thanked his mum for teaching him to sew.Cute huh? :P

Rainbow : This dude is super cool and super funny. He is a footballer, and i thought was his body type should be like a footballer should have -_- but he doesn't take it seriously, is just how the way wants it. he told me that when he was in standard 5, he was this chubby kid, and yeah i still got the picture, haha. on the 30Th Dec 2007, my mum's birthday, we were on. seriously it was memorable, frankly, we don't have anything in common, maybe his sense of humour turned me up. in our relationship, there were more Downs than ups. he's just too open and spontaneous until we had a fight. a big one, major big. but he would never leave me like that, he would come and see me and bought some Ribena drinks, 1901 hot dogs, anything to cheer me up though. he is a gentleman, but after a year and a half later, we broke up for some reasons, and he even text ed my mum to apologize his wrongdoings. i told a friend of mine and he said

Friend : Gentle :) knape kena break?

My mum showed the text message to my cousins.

Cousins : heh, kelaka :p

Green and Pink : Heyy this guy is the fastest guy I've ever get attached to! i mean attach bukan couple la, tapi like suka. this happens this year before my birthday. he is an old friend on Myspace, he was like a brother to me at that time, i was 15 and he's 17 and i really think that at age 17 was too old for me to like. but when i grew 17, i really dont think 19 is a number to me. He was all this crazy and stuff. Artistic too. then, jumpa di Yahu, and he asked ,

Him : ini mel yang gila tu ?
Mel : gila ape ni?
Him : kat myspace.
Mel : oh, bila dah tkde myspace, dah tk gile la :)
Him : haha :))

We chatted for hours, until time dia nak main futsal pun, dia tak nak kelua rumah. Haha, he is a great guy, i liked him once, but now, yes, only a brother to me.

Dark Purple : this guy, i can mention his name! because he is a special friend, i dont know, more than a bestfriend less than a boyfriend? haha you figure things out. oh wait, a super duper friend if it counts. heh, Adib bin Hamid. Firstly, i thought he was this EMO kid who has eating disorder, i never see him smiling, not even once. He is a myspace friend too, but all of his pictures we're all scary and berlagak EMO -_- after 2 years knowing him, understand his problems, no wonder lah dia mcm tuuuu! nak perli budak emo, (2007 and 2008 and macam semua budak nak jadi emo and pakai payung yang burok tu, bodo malaysians :| ) he is traight, for sure, he got loads of crushs and got crushed by too. He got this mat salleh looks, very handsome i tell you :) a listener too, he listens to everything, the karuts and the facts, but i think there were more karuts than facts, haha thats what i like about this friend, follow my flow. Oh yea, he loves to share his screamo songs with me T.T

Pink : F, awwwww he is super shy , non-talkative, but a skater -__- , hard to believe, but he is the way he is, (selalu tegur kot bila dia kurang bercakap). I call him perobak because he told me that when a lorry cam by to his house he would shout "Perobak, perobak! " haha very cute thought, he is cute! :D azim wants him! Disebabkan dia kurang bercakap, so kurang lah pasal dia , heh, sekian :p


Green and Yellow: : I've known him for well about 2 years now? An ex's bestfriend,firstly i thought he would want to maki maki me -_-, doe, ex aku ni berdendam wey. but then, my thought was totally wrong, he became a friend, and we talked, damn we talked about two hours using the house phone, and it costs me a lot too, we had a fight, as soon as i received the telephone bill. and he was like, oh okay la tu. thats when we haven't talk fo months, creephead, i hate you. but the end of July, we started okay as friends, like normal things should be. So, evrything is great now, sometimes we trade question sheets, and i called him MRSM Penipu , suka dapat soalan bocor, lalu, dia marah :) what do i care, he would never be mad at me. what makes me so sure? -_-



six sweeties by melssa fatty.

This girl

what should i call her? a love-wrecker? spoiler that spoils everything? don't blame her, she's just fucking 15 :) that guy would defend her so, whatever i said would be a one dot bullc*ap.


Let it be short but meaningful to me.


Stand still,
Mellsa Amiera

Subang Perit

Semalam went to Subang Parade, nak beli baju kurung for this year, hurm, it end up by shopping di Soda dan Voir , haha . Tapi at last beli la jugak a pair of baju kurung di Sireh Pinang, ni pun satu crisis, dah berkenan kat this baju kurung, tapi XS :| *dang


Kakak tu cari punye cari, and TAKDE :( * dang lagi

Nampak Crocs Hello Kitty , tapi Ayah tk bagi beli * dang dang danggggggg


ni die , tolong peliss sesape





Being Happy and such,
Mellsa Amiera

You guys

Selamat Berpuasa okay :) and i'll be gone for a few months

Eyy, scaryy.

Bukan scary hantu, scary nak trial ;\ bole tak trial ni easy come and easy go? BOLLLLLLEEEEEEEH TAAAAAAK?


Cuak,
Mel

Down under

I love the pathetic life of mine. It's so pathetic until I can't compare it to anything.

Marah? Marah la, apesal semua nak condemn aku? Mestilah marah!

Happy? Happylah, sikit lagi nak habis sekola, nak move on. Happpy la!

Sedih? Sedih lah mesti! Ditinggalkan, diabaikan, ditolak-ketepikan.

Geram? Geram kot, sebab percaya sangat benda yang mungkin akan happen, hppen? Bullshit(DOT).

Nak mencarut? Nak, tapi bukan kat sini



I got this weird mixing feelings,
Mellsa Amiera, fuck you F.

Boredom Fills

When you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, what's the first thing you say?
Eyyy,bila nak end this pimple war?

2. How much cash do you have on you?
RM 3 J

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"?
BEST

4. Favorite planet?
Planet Earth :D

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Girlfriend<3

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?
Happy Together

7. What shirt are you wearing?
I LOVE CHOCOLATE ,

8. Do you "label" yourself?
Currently, no.

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
Oliver Crocs, Crocodile

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Bright

11. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I slept early, so maybe I snored?

12. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
“Mama just nak jaga hati awak kot.”

13. What's a saying that you say a lot?
“I don’t give such shit” “Go away” “What?” “seriously”

14. Who told you they loved you last?
Akif?

15. Last furry thing you touched?
Horna Horni he gave me

16. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days?
I don’t do drugs, sorry

17. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
none

18. Favorite age you have been so far?
3 until 14 J

19. Your worst enemy?
I wont mention, but shouldn’t belong here

20. What is your current desktop picture?
Hello kitty by Tarina Torontino

21. What was the last thing you said to someone?
“You’re just being paranoid”

22. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?
a million bucks J ehheh, nak dua dua!

23. Do you like someone?
yea, not only like him, I love him too ;p

24. The last song you listened to?
Brian Mcknight – Back At One ok ok nak tagggg! ; siape siape yang tngok :D

diadiadiadiadiadiadia

dia bagi saye semangat! terima kasih dia :) MuAackkZz 200x


*rempiters

bukan ingin mengutuk, tetapi emm tetapi?,
Mellsa Amiera

Gerak Gempur yang menggerakkan.

Tadi kan, ade exam BM, bila diorang dah start susun meja, i felt like crying, my heart thumps really fast, and i didn't read a single thing -_- and i thought i would fuckin blow off this one. a few mins later, teacher dah start distributing the papers, and i talked to myself, "BOLEH MEL,BOLEH".


Suddenly, dah buka, hm "TAK BOLEH NI". tahu tak apesal, sebab ade pantun enam kerat, i tak baca yang itu kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! *merungut yang manja dan bengang.


Tapi tak, i didnt give up, i buat je rumusan and so on, so on, so on, and brake. Kenapa brake? dah sampai satu section ni, about bahasa and istilah, hm, dah tak tau mane salah bahasa o istilah. Ainaa pandang saya, saya pandang balik -_- . Ainaa pandang lagi, saya buat muka pelik, *naik hantu weh, fikir pasal benda ni. cara duduk pun dah lain aw , pity me.

Em, tak tau the answer, had a talk with Amzar, dia pun macam saya juga. Bah , jangan kata,Zik dah tidddddo, haha dah kena warning twice dgn Yah. Akhirnya, i spent my cramp buttocks on the chair for 2 hours and a half. Alhamdulillah , sebab tak terikat dengan hasutan Ayu,

NAK TAHU DIA HASUT APA? mel, stop lah buat, relaxx la ;p
beeeeeet, reply ke Ayu . Yu, kalau mel ni pandai memang mel stop la, ni sebaliknya,ape cite en?

Nak cite kertas 1! kertas 1! cepat cepat! :D

I breathe slowly, buka papernya. Wat thi fak? Pasar Tani? nak ada point apa? -_- Macam biasa lah, toleh kiri kanan, tapi ni saye tengok Ainaa dah nak masuk second paragraph, "Na,tunggu lah!". Tengok kanan, Amzar pun dah start. and I was like "Apesal berfunction gila otak kau lepas rehat ni?". Em, saya rasa tense bila berada di tengah tengah, saye cover muka saye dengan tudung*nak nangis, tak boleh, tak boleh nangis, kena nangis, no, kuat sikit mel, ni baru test biasa, susunan meja je yang membuatkan kau cuak.

yea, saye mula menulis, saye tulis, tulis (....) yaay! perenggan ke-empat. Ainaa kate , pandai pun tulis. haha bangga kejap, fokus, fokus lagi, fokus lagi banyaak, eh, siap? :p haha


dah tu buat yang serious matter punya, i cant stop asking Ainaa, partitioning dalam malay is? is? haha, Puan Norsyam pun usha je, pastu Qima tolong jawabkan, haha, Thnks :D membahagikan, rremember mel, remember. Kalau dah sampai masa nak buka mulut, buka juga, sambil buat and cakap dengan Ayu? haha, Ayu pun layan je. Tapi magic lagi, saye siap, Yeyaay! ;D

then, tengok ameer and bahri kutuk sesama sendiri :)

love plus exhausted,
Mellssa Amiera dot

Im going to choose jiwang all the way.

Hihi, post ni kalau dah baca the title, semua nak geli geliman, but seriously, bila tgh down, dengar lagu like some that we called "rempit rempit-ans", hey they're even better expressers than us. some songs made me cry, because the lyrics were the perfect shot towards my feelings here. there are about friends, love, mostly love la kan. jgn tipu saye, saye tau semua orang pernah denga lagu geli geli mcm ni, like "Halahai, tertune-in Sinar.Fm pulak" haha, you all saje :p


I hate , well i dont hate, i accidently hate 30% of this guy. This guy that made me love him once, but there's nothing between us anymore. I wanted him back once, no, i mean twice. Sounds desperate ey? But, when you are damn hecking sure about it, why don't you just give it a try then.

Thank God, there's someone would cheer me up by playing his guitar and singing Nobody by Wonder Girls, a boy from Sinagpore, this entry would probably be the same as my sister's that assumed this guy is her boyfriend. In your dreams ;p haha but seriously, i listened to his singing over and over again. nak tngok vid tu, go to my sister's.




dengan perasaan garang+marah+sedih,
Mellsa Amiera

Biar dia terasa

I pity the fools who believe in you
because I know someday now, they'll see your colours too.
And if you see a smile, besides my face, know I'm doing good now.
Since you've been erased.


haha, entahlah, tak tau pun ni untuk sape, tapi ni yang saye rase saye nak type. end dia mmg pedih, tapi terimalah :)

getting out of the shell

Genes may play a role, but there are ways to overcome it.

"I had lots of friends, but I had no dates," Carducci, the director of the Indiana University Southeast Shyness Research Institute, said of his youth. Shyness is "something that I work at."


Recipes for shyness ,
shyness requires a sense of self — which develops only after about 18 months of age. It involves feelings of excessive self-consciousness, negative self-evaluation and negative self-preoccupation.

"Shy people operate as if thy have a mirror in front of them all the time," he told LiveScience.


A shy disposition

In a nutshell, shy people want to be outgoing and friendly, but can't seem to figure out how to do it, Carducci said.

They are also slow to "warm up" in new social situations, partly because they are so self-conscious.

"They'll go to a social function, but if they're not comfortable within 10 minutes, they'll turn and they'll run," Carducci said.

They may be social and have friends, but they tend to do the same things over and over again with the same small circle of people, rather than exposing themselves to new social situations.

Carducci points out, however, that shyness is not related to self-esteem. People can be confident in certain aspects of their lives—they may be able to give presentations in front of hundreds of people—but the thought of making small talk with a stranger might make them extremely anxious.

Don't be shy of a cure

There are a number of approaches to overcoming their shyness.

One is through relaxation training. People might try imagining themselves in different social situations while taking slow, deep breaths to keep calm.

Chasing cars, chasing time

Hello, im back. and i really wish i could be happy like i was 5 years back then. but today, i felt the happiness, at school and even at home. who made me feel this way? classmates or sure, they are heck of fun :) i learned 3 things from Bahri, and i teached him one thing. the dont-you-dare head shake with the gedik finger ;p and seriously bah and ameer, you guys are not gedik natural . Haha. oh and maybe i ate some KISSES choclates, thnks K :) "i cant give you real kisses, but i can give these kisses, i hope you love it." this is just so sweet, but he is a friend now. talking about friends, this is a survey about them.


Friendliest: dur danah mustaffa
Prettiest: anis nabila mansur
Most talkative: norzasyakila zakaria
Most arrogant: hazirah?
Most inmature: allysa nugget, shazmin hashim, ainur sabreena, hurul hamid
.Most mature: siti nurul idayu bt abd sapian
Most perfect: alia ruzalan
Most obsessive: alia ruzalan, muhd khidhr
Richest: mirya sahhudin
Most unlucky: khairul syazwan?
One you've known for longest: alia ruzalan
One you can most relate to: alia ruzalan
One that is most like you physically: haha not a friend, tapi ade satu , kat 5C ;p
One that you've known for the less longest: hanan manan
One that has the best grammar: haqqima raj
One that shares your hobbies: alia ruzalan, hidayah zaili razib, haqqima raj
One shares your musical interest: haqqima raj , farah ainaa
One that you have slept over their house more than 5 times: alia ruzakan, dah mcm rumah sendiri :)
One that never slept over your house: semua except alia, i trust her :)
Skinniest: farah ainaa, rafidah james, natasya amira
Smartest: stacey eng, helshiela julies
Stupidest: naqqiudin
One that dyes their hair most: adzfar mudh banhawi
One that has the darkest hair color: entah, semua asian, so semua kot ;p
One that has the lightest hair color: entah, dorang tak tayang pun :)
One that paints their nails more often: hafizah hani razali
Most gangster: khidhr, ahmad sofiadi, ahmad wafa'a, naqib, fahmi
Most creative: alia ruzalan, wafa'a, haqqima and me ;p haha

i didnt meant to hurt your feelings, this is what we called no MERCY !

craving

im having a harsh year, and i need to be alone. away

Thnkyoufrnds.

Make me cry, make me now! Its a stupid thing to cry over you. My friends got so demanding and i received some un-easy comments.

• "He has someone else Mel."
• "Don't you think she is better for him?"
• "Let it go Mel."
• "Fuck him for letting things go."
• "I might want to get out of your shell a bit."
• "Mel, bagi jelah, bukan laki you pun.".
• "You tngok la , let's see how far they'll go."
• "She is a kid -_-."

Some of the comments helps. But some of it, i cant really get over it, im sorry guys. i know i could be much more stronger if i face up my challenges without thinking about him. and do not stalk his MySpace.

+But guys, he said that he wasn't sure about it :( un-easy comments :

+i told you mel, its not going to be like it usually does. things goes around.

+Cari lah boyfriend dekat U. lagi handsome.

+Mel, remember, you dah tngok He's just not that into you kan? maybe macam tu la

+Apa apa pun, dia still akan contact that girl, belakang you kan? who knows syg?

Yang ni kurang sikit orang nak comment, sebab buntu dah kot, tak tau nak buat apa? Should i trust this guy, like i trusted him before?

a simple picture, extravagant meaning

Desperate?

Broken hearts left with open wounds
Somehow yours healed real soon
Unfortunately, I'm still here
Left with guilt, pain and fear
I'm glad that you're all right
With no more tears left to fight
But why are things still this way?
Why are there no words to say?
If we talk we fight and complain
I'm always left with nothing gained
I hurt you- then it was your turn
And like a candle I was burned
I made mistakes that I regret
Big deal, that's life, forgive-forget
With so much life I've left to live
I know I have even more to give
I'll do my best- with my head held high
To make mistakes, learn and never cry.

i never been so desperate before. this is what i feel, it took me 2 hours and tears to finish this up.

Summarized it,

Watched this documentary on HBO, the story titled "To Be Fat Like Me". Its says that, fat people use to get offended by others. the girl in the story is actually skinny, and she wants to make this mission a secret from others. her mum was skinny and beautiful but as soon as she got her second son, she wasn't aware with her diet, when Alyson, is an athlete. she was ashame of her mother eating disorder. her mum was fat, to me, its possible for adults to get fatter than when they were young.

i jotted down a few things, it says that, we shouldn't be ashamed of ourselves , why would people want us to be to? being fat is not that we have to bully ourselves, taking aweself back , when you want to do something, do it, asking a girl or a guy out, go for it, its not like we're going to die after that, try that out, it wont hurt a thing. in a matter of fact, we're getting our boost of confidence even better.im not a pro at this, but this is what i think , yea because im fat too, i can feel their feelings in the story. who are them to judge us? not to all the readers though, for those who are somehow like me :)

i want to ask, how the heck can we be confident when people cant stop making fun of us? give us time, its not a problem to you. you're not the one who gives us food or money to buy candy bars.
realise it people, its big people with a big heart. deep inside i think, fat people is sensitive, they'll show it when theres a tube of chunky monkey ice cream in front of them. truth hurts. so am i, im mad at those who called me Fat, im not fat, im just a bit bigger than you, and im more into food. you cant expect i would be skinnny in a few days, aneroxic? hmm, i did this, i sticked my finger into my throat, and starting today i became someone that is "not eating". thnks to those who made me like this, i know it sounds stupid, hmmm its been 4 days now. btw, we still can love that person even we're mad at them? and i didnt burst into tears , im comfortable now.

Hello, this is FML.

Apa lagi yang hendak di FML kan lagi? Oh ada satu, pasal tak puas hati with this is guy. Kasi la nama dia A ok :) cantikkkkkkkk. pujaan kot? kalau bukan , tkde orang la nak dia kan? tapi ada orang kata to him "im kinda fucking love him". haha, mel nangis sebab terkejut kejap. sekejap kot? straight 40mins, semuanya berlaku dalam bilik abang, and called Nur Alia Ruzalan, dia cerita about her father, and it was fucking shocking. Kenapa hari ni semuanya macam ni? Bukan tak menerima, tapi mahu tahu punca.

Ya, mostly people akan cakap , kita nak besar-besarkan hal yang remeh, selagi tak ada solution dia, selagi tu maw bising. Saye macam tu jugak, tipulah, saye ni benda remeh temeh pun saye boleh uat gaduh, tak caye cuba tanye A. dia dalam hati mesti ckp saye ni suck and all. walaupun dia dah ada prempuan tu, saye still boleh anggap dia macam something to saye. saye tak nak tulis yang buruk buruk pasal dia. Sapik kata tak elok, nanti nampak mcm saye ni teruk. Sapik! mmg saye teruk lah! :) sapik kate, bukan dia takde, saye tak boleh hidup. betul jugak cakap dia, kat U lagi bnyk varities. tapi saye tetap mahu menjawab, saye ckp what if kalau tkde orang nak saye :|, persoalan tu kan? tapi lama lama of course ada, kalau boleh saye nak belaja jauh-jauh smpai takyah jumpa A lagi, tapi orang Islam tak elok saling benci-membenci kan. saye sedar yang hidup ni susah kalau tak pandai nak uruskan and suka cari pasal. mcm saye! :D


saye pun nak tahu punca dia je? sebab saye rapat dengan W dulu? Oh, tu dulu, skrg mana ade, dia busy and mem-busykan diri, saye pun cool jelah, saye ade kawan. kawan saye ade lah dalam 20 orang yang saye suka talk with. paling paling sekali Alia la, sbb dia suka dnga saye mencarut. * dia ajar!. second, ainaa, keemy,azim muztapha, yuseno, cha, epet and so on. Ayu pun! kalau nmpk dia online lah, saye cepat2 buzz dia dan straight foward cite kat dia! haha, ni mmg tak sabar punye case. saye pun tak tahu la saye type ape ni, tapi yang saye tahu hari ni mmg tunggang terbalik.

DA-MN

WHY MUST YOU BE SO DAMN FILTHY YOU BEIGTCH !

I rindu semua ni!

God, i felt like i havent type much ay? i didnt feel like typing these couple of days. im busy with my work, homework, chores? :P haha there was no chores for me, and im soo not proud of that. i miss those days when i used to hang out and play basketball with Ira, and and peeking around guys playing with their skateboards, TOPLESS, i repeat, TOPLESS. Haha, its fun tho, but now they finished their studies here, and went, i dont know -_- i barely love looking at someone that i dont know, weird? what the heck? Ni Mell laaaaaaa =)

there are couple of things that i miss doing it :
*minum milo kat luar! :D
*comment di MYSPACE? haha
*lepak dgn bebik community. Hey, ada yang saye kamceng!
*going out with mama, mama belanja books ;( bila lagi nih?
*drawing :( hey, i dont have the chance to do this tooo!
*reading my un-read storybooks.
*make some collages, dey, this year buat satu je, ni pun untuk class ;(
*ber-gossip cite pasal boifren dengan Ira.
*ber-gossip cite pasal sape tkde dara, haha, hey, this is a true fact about our school, if you need bitches, go to this class, 5*.
*talking on the phone with Ya.
*texting Kak Shaza, she's no longer here, Toodles to UK.
*tidy up my wardrobe? haha i dont have time for this either, my clothesare SO-OFF-THE-SCENE.
*cant really do this project D:


Maybe i can collapse if i dont do these listed things.

Super Boost

Something amazing happened to me on 18th July 2009, 1.15 p.m.


and it would be my 4th secret.

Ugly Betty Season 3, overall

The Season Finale of Ugly Betty Which Leads To Season 4 Story Line..
As Usual, There's No Happy Ending For Ugly Betty Which Makes Me Thinks What Happen Next Season.

The Questions Are....

*How About Betty's Love Life...??
*How She Gonna Face Matt As Her Boss....??
*Who is Actually Wilhelmina Saw in Her Apartment....?
*Who is Claire-Calvin's Child?
*How Daniel Face Molly's Death?
*What About Marc...??
*How About His Position at M.O.D.E?
*Will Wilhelmina Found Connor....? *
Will She Survived in The Company?

There's Been Rumors Betty's Braces Will Be Removed... Just Wonder How Beautiful Betty Would Look Like...
:-P

Gembira? for a while

Today at school, hey i put my happy hat on , and my laughters switched too. i said too many things, many stupid freaking things fyi. amer brought his guitar, naa? is it his? -_-"

whatever it is, i asked him to play a few songs that i like, but NONE was my favourite, he knows how play Dan Sebenarnya intro, damn it was sooo good, he makes me wanna sing, and YEt, i sang. haha beat that, i sang in front of them. well, i'm actually doing it right, Qima and Zu sang along too, but i think my voice was louder than the others, out teacher who's teaching us SIVIK,emmm, she was pissed, i can see that. haha but deal with it, this is US.

Qima bawak her HOT PINK camera, dude, that camera is definied as super interesting and cantiik. im quite jealous tho, her dad bought it in Japan. well, when that counts. okay, back to the teacher, she perli us.

Miss Pissed Off : hey, yang belakang tu dah siap ke belum? kalau tidak saya rampas guitar tu.

Ameer : Huh?

Bahri : A'ah, sivik ni masuk SPM.

US : HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.

My conversation with Ainaa.

Fat-so : Is she married?

Cine : What?

Fat-so : Is she married? I can see her wedding ring from here.

Cine : Yea, she is, she wears it HERE. *tunjuk jari yang selalunya married ppl put the ring on.

Fat-so : Mesti dia report kat Abang dia, haha, muka dia merah!

Cine : "Abang, budak budak ni mcm setan semuanye ". *hahahahhahahhaha

Fat-so : Sadly, i pity her :P

End Of Discussion.


My conversation with Syafiq.

Fat-so: Glad she's gone.

Abang Handsome : mesti dia taknak ajar kitorang dah, kesian dia.

Fat-so : Huh? kisah pulak kau? ingt tkde feelings. haha

Abang Handsome : haha, irst time aku kesian kat org pulaaaak, bagi chance laa. :P

End of Discussion

On my way home, i asked my mum whether can i see Sofi before dia pergi Practical. This is what she said.

MA : kan best kakak dpt mcm ke-ustaz-an .
Kakak : Whut? -_-

Wey, i know its a good thing, but you cant force me to do everything YOUR WAY. This is just too much for me, I cant handle it, i go straight to my room, and called Sofi and cursed, he knows how i curse and how long i curse.

Haha

my former relationship was like this, i hope things get better then, Amin :)

Dear bloggie,

I had fun YESTERDAY. I'm fucking tired TODAY. I'll do all my homeworks TOMORROW.

YESTERDAY
Ayah was fun, lepak di HolidayInn, with Auntie Jaja, and Uncle who perform there.

TODAY
I have to rush :( sbb tido lama! hehe, its a must okay kids.

TOMORROW
Sejarah , Agama and EST, and English! Favret :P

Watch this shit

its fun, but don blurt's thumbelina * the original , is way more classic. thank you :)

Hipotesis minggu ini.

-lagi usha dia, lagi aku sakit hati.
-lagi ingat benda lama, lagi aku nak nangis.
-lagi aku topup, lagi aku nak contact dia.
-lagi banyak homework, lagi malas aku nak buat.
-lagi banyak orang contact aku, lagi aku nak menyendiri, sory LYY.
-lagi lama aku plan, lagi habuk aku dapat.
-lagi aku marah, lagi serabut kepala aku.
-lagi bnyk masalah, lagi aku tknak datang sekolah.
-lagi buat keje, lagi aku tak cukup tido, eventho BUKAN KERJA AKU PUN.

YA, AKU MEMANG JENIS ORANG SENANG DIKETEPIKAN, BILA DIPERLUKAN KAU AKAN SE-DESPERATE-DESPERATE-NYA MINTA PERTOLONGAN DARI AKU. APABILA KAU SENANG, KAU MENIGGALKAN AKU. KAU TIDAK KISAH AKAN APA YANG BERLAKU. SEBAB KAU DISUKAI ORANG, KAU RAMAI KAWAN.

enough said. mmg mood geram. mekaseh.

Fat fingers.

50 words

Typingtest

I think I have a talent now :p

Bila saya

Dengar lagu :

Zee Avi , Bitterheart : berangan tgh main ukulele :)

Yellow Card , Everywhere : saye akan pretend saye main drums.

Wonder Girls , Nobody : saye pun nak joget gedik gedik.

The Redjumpsuit Apparatus , Your Guardian Angel : ni saye duduk diam, sbb sedih.

The Killers , Mr Brightside : ni mmg saye ikut nyanyi same!

Taking Back Sunday , You are so last summer : saye rasa benci sgt kat orang tu.

Papa Roach ,Scars : saye pun nak rock-ish jugak :) release tension ni,

Oh Chentaku, Starlight Stalker : teringat kat AWAK !

Nickelback , Far Away : saye pretend saye nyanyi solo.

Ne-yo , Mad : menangis! :D

Ne-yo, Because of you : -,- emm

Miley Cyrus , Hoedown Throwdown : joget like the dance tutorial! :)

Meg and Dia , Going away : nyanyi sekuat hati.

Demi Lovato , Dont forget : nyanyi sekuat hati, geram.

Demi Lovato , La La Land : nyanyi sekuat hati, riang.

Arctic Monkeys , Mardy Bum : brangan main guitar solo :D haha

Jackson 5 , I'll Be there : buat suara kecik.

Souljaboy, Kiss me thru the phone : saye just nyanyi part dia give the number. haha i cant rap

Beyonce, Listen : saye miming.

Enrique, Taking back my Love : saye head bang je :)

this is my playlist in Ares.

OVER-RATED.

OVERCOMES,OVERCOMERS,OVEREACTING, OVER-REACTORS, SO KNOWN AS DRAMA QUEENS, OVERALL, THEY SUCK.

Tag! You're it! :D

HEHE, ni prediction saje, tapi aneem got to choose her choice! :P

Please add my new YM.

melissaamiera@yahoo.com.

Si celaka tukar password aku :)

The medicine of the day

1. A text from The Pusher.
2. Epul called me Wicked Whore. haha bodoh!
3. Asha's pretending to drive the MyVi.
4. Google.
5. Laughters with Mak Tok.
6. La La Land- Demi Lovato.
7. Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, watched it with Asha.
8. Lontong :P
9. Wore baju kurung to tution, its comfy though.
10. Jalan sini sana at school, and enough food for today. Nuff said.
11. Learnt a Lesson :)

She goes happily ever after

That girl, yeah me, she is happy to live like this, its not like she's not grateful to have a boy that comforts her, she was just wasn't ready. who would you blame ? situation like this can't be forgotten in a giff, kinda hard though, but if you succeed to forget it, she'll call you a winner, if you don't , a whinner is your second name. it's easy to be selfish, thats me. A boy called me that, selfish, a word that fits her great. Sorry, you can either blame yourself or your bitches for this problem. But what she realises is, she is happy, damn happy, the tears of joyness roll down to her cheeks because she is proud of herself, for what she had done to herself. she apologises again readers, and a reader that might not like this post so much, im so sorry.

i wont tell

am i that sucky?

What's up Melissa Amiera?

hey, i dont feel great now, im feeling so down, really down under until i dont know where it takes me now, i dont feel like studying , i keep on skipping classes , and schools, but more into comps and really into my Seni kerja, someone out there, yeah out there, he cares, but after things happened, and he's really busy with his practical that i wished would be ended soon ;( come on, i need attention, not in a desperate way, i mean hell yeah like desperate but in a way with love. and there's no one now pushing me to study,


SOMEONE: Study okay, nak SPM.
SOMEONE 1 : Hey, pehal memalas ni? jadik la orang bergune sikit.
SOMEONE 2:Mel, i wont give you anything if tkde buku depan mata you.


Hmmm, i miss these 3 someones, a girl and two guys. thnk you :)

May the curse be with You

Today i really feel like crying, the person that i care the most, no doubt, i care about him. if i'm not, please prove me wrong. im trying to speak but you turn me down, but i didnt stop talking, not a chance, when i keep talking, you hung up. and one day you'll see, you'll feel what i felt because karma is turning back to you.




and may the curse be with you.

Hensem :)

I like them :) click this link!

Happy :)

Maaf! 920619105968 tidak dipilih untuk menyertai PLKNSiri 7/ 2010, Terima kasih.

Terima kasih kat kau jugak! :D

Why?

He's just too perfect, awwww, how perfect he is :)


.......................................................................................

Alaa, now he's going away :(

Macam ni pulak saye rase,

wah wah wah hari ni sangat penat! langsung takde masa nak mengade ngade dengan sesape pun! harap maklum, saye busy dengan keje kayu saye lagipun -,- some said, "SPM lagi penting". ye betul, tapi ada orang buat saye marah ssgt, saye pun marah la sesangat sekarang ni! bukan sebab die kacau saye buat keje, die buat saye sakit hati bnyk bnyk!



*kepada readers, jgn la terasa diri anda yang telah menyemak dlm notis di atas :)

Easing

God, penatnye ;(

I would have babies, not with you.

Biasanya i always tell a friend of mine about you, sweet things about you though :) nothing bitter, and nothing too sour. but sour to me because you treat me like *h**, im sorry, but i felt so s**tted by you. but i dont know why i still like you, your AURA maybe? ada ke something like AURA ni? i guess AURA ni affected myself so much, you bnyk sakitkan hati i, tapi i know how to ease the hurt, by not contacting you.

terima kasih bebnyk kat you yang pamper i kekadang :) tapi rasa like i yang terhegeh-hegeh, i mean over-reacting ke? yea, over. when you pun tak ambil kisah, you ambil kisah kot -,- tapi tak mahu tunjuk. ego mungkin? i percaya egois tu wujud. tapi a friend of mine ada cakap ni.

FRIEND : mel, cuba you yang buat dia terhegeh-hegeh kat you. it seems fair to me.
MEL : idea yang menarik, tapi tak sampai hati, i love him :
FRIEND: if dia sampai hati buat u mcm tu, kenape you tk boleh? kan?
MEL : saye cuba ye friend.

ni, tgh tunjuk la ni yang saye kurang kisah pasal dia :) im trying, giving it till the maxx.
:(

Kakak act,

went to maktok's. i wore something that i really didnt wish to wear. forced? i dont think its a suitable word, i dont know how to describe. i wasnt ready. mama once said, " ni wajib dibuat, tak boleh ready or tak ready". so yea, thats true.

bm boleh?

so lame lame kemudian, mama dengar like bunyi kereta mak teh. then all of sudden, mama nak comment the shirt i wear, its not actually a shirt, a blue blouse. and bukan mak teh pun.

Mama: makteh nampak nanti, kang makteh bising.

Kakak: knape pulak? dah kira okay kot apa kakak pakai ni? semua nak dnga ckp dia, jgnlah kasi dia control life kakak, jgn jadi hypocryte sgt.

Kak Ngah: betul la tu ape mak teh tegur.

mama ajak ke depan, kak ngah bawak garnier punya facial wash. then i asked, nak buat facial ramai ramai ke? ohh tak, things get ugly.

Mama: kakak, betullah ape mak teh tegur tu, she cares about her niece, mcm mama tegur kak ngah jugak. *grabbed my hand.

And i felt like leaving, tapi i have to sit.Then mama dah start touch about dosa-dosa and about me being a big girl. man im 17 :) i started crying.

there are things i have to say but i didnt say a single word. *crying.

kakak memang salahkan mama sekarang ni. mama dulu takde nak ajar kakak benda benda ni semua, bila kakak pakai apa2 , you dont even care, bila dah besar panjang ni baru nak suruh pakai stokings, loose clothes, tudung that covers everything, its not like i didnt try, tapi tadi tu i tried, i tried to be open-minded and i listened to her advices. kak ngah kata take it slowly, one step at a time, tapi tngh one step la ni, mama bukannye boleh a step a time, mama nak sekali langkah besar. kak ngah tak tahu, mama pun tadi tak confess yang mama suruh mcm mcm sekali gus. kakak yang kena tanggung all this,kakak tahu semua orang pun kena buat benda yang sama and benda yang tak mendatangkan dosa, kakak boleh buat apa yang mama suruh, its just jgn push kakak, kakak pun bnyk fikir jugak, cuma tak bercerita, dah la kakak ni slow, nak fikir this and that, kakak tahu apa kakak buat sekarang ni, the thing is kakak memang dalam progress to change how i wear. mama tak nmpk semua tu, bukan nak tunjuk keras kepala kakak ni, i just know it, kakak pun ada time yang kakak tak nak orang control cara hidup kakak, kakak boleh rely on myself jugak. and kakak tak blame mama for this , cuma marah, sebab pasal orang yang lebih kuat agama sikit dari kita, nak kena rasa diperkecilkan. mama selalu ikutkan apa yang orang kata. tu yang kakak tak suka pasal mama, orang cakap semua betul ,and kalau dah dapat approval from diri mama, terus nak buat and expect kitorang buat benda yang sama. boleh ikut, tapi mengambil masa la, kakak dah tahu tanggungjawab kakak sekarang ni, jgn risau, kakak selalu ingt Allah. Sorry if kakak tak cakap apa apa dekat kak ngah or fawi after that, kakak rasa kena attack secara mengejut, kakak boleh ditegur tapi takes time to 'makan' those advices.

*thank you mama, kak ngah and fawi.

1906! Thnks :)

1. Wafaa : hehe secret nih :)
2. 0172636648? : Happy birthday melissa amiera bt roslan!
3. Alia : hey, happy 17th birthday to you miera! erm, hp kite kena rampas kat sekola.
4. Keemiko : melly! happy birthday dear! moga panjang umur and murah rezeki, ily.
5. Adib Bolton : mel, happy birthday kay, sorry lambat :)
6. 0193711224? : !!! Happy befday!!!
7. Ainaa: mel,happy bday! may god bless you. wey sorry lmbt wish. smlm i tk larat nak tunggu.
8. Cikgu Akma: haa? bday kamu eh? happy bday and i hope awak dpt straight A's ye :)
9. 5F students :D

1. haha sorry guys yang 40 wishes tu semua yang sama, thnks for wishing btw :D

Today again

Everything went so well :)

Today

aku balik rumah saje aku terasa lapar dan malang : sebab aku tak sangka result aku seteruk ini, hampa weh. aku banyak banyak buat solat taubat, aku nak mintak maaf kat mama sebab meninggikan suara kat dia. sorry mama, i love you :') kat ayah pun sama, sebab cepat sangat memberontak bila tak dapat apa yang aku nak.


sorry jugak kat farah ainaa isa, disebabkan aku puasa, aku tkley nak teman dia pergi ambil buku kawalan, go ainaa! you can go solo! * sorak sorak guna pom pom kuning. and juga kepada puan shanti, bukan melissa tak sayang cikgu, sayang saje, tapi jangan la treat kawan kawan saye yang tak amek EST tu mcm tu :( tak baik. kalau cikgu buat mood saye baik, saye baik le dengan cikgu.

pagi tadi, mama pesan, pakai pakaian yang tutup aurat, i was mad at first, tapi wth kan, she's my mum, selagi aku duduk dengan dia, selagi tu aku denga cakap dia. pakai loafer pun, pakai jelah. petang tu, aku dah start pakai something yang memang tak dijangkalah, korek punya korek, jumpa satu blouse yang cute dalam almari -,- dah lama beli tapi tak pernah pakai pun, nasib baik muat. * sorak sorak lagi! pakai pom pom pink! mama pun puji, suka kalau kena puji dgn mama, terasa macam a princess :) mama kate kakak good girl, heish, malu ! tapi bangga! * tutup mata dengan baju,hihi.

then time magreb, aku berjaya berpuasa untuk hari ke-2! :D aku merungut, tapi mama ada je ckp, kalau mcm ni dosa la, kalau mcm tu dosa la, tapi mmg betul pun, sayang mama! * terasa mcm nak peluk mcm skrg ni! tapi mama dalam bilik, malas ah :P. mama buat soya bean untuk kakak, tenkiu mama!

WSHLIST1906

Yang pink! :D

INI SATU KEPERLUAN! :D haha saye nak dia nyanyi lagu "happy birthday" kat saye bolehhhh? dgn aksi gay dia sekali.

Sape yang bagi aku guitar ni on the 19th, dah tertera dalam bilik, mmg aku sayang smpai mati.

Dear single life,

may i be as strong as my other single friends? i think i would rather go solo, when he's just not that into me, i wouldn't be that effing cheap, well,i have to confess, i love him. do you think i'll survive this way? i think it so too. i can't wait to find some new things out there, i recalll, NEW THINGS. i really wanted to have a serious relationship with him, but luck, luck doesnt presents itself then. you know who you are, play.work.fun-mate :)

You could.

Hello, my name is Melissa Amiera

Im 17.

I hope I'll keep this blog and stickin' to it.

Dayam Mad.

Cant take my eyes off you - Muse

Vol : 100%

Someone,One Day, Aminn

*So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end.
*Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with.
-Kroager

*Nobody wants to be the last one there.
*Everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
*Someone to love with my life in their hands.
*There's gotta be somebody for me like that.
*Because nobody wants to do it on their own.
*And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
*There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
*There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

Amin.

Very very plastic words.

Kau dah cakap sorry kat aku, tapi kau buat lagi benda yang sama, baik tak payah apologize. Buang saliva and masa aku untuk mendengar. Byotch plastic.



KAU MEMANG BODOOOOOOOOH! DAN AKU TAK BODOH SANGAT TETAPI BAIK HATI KERANA MEMAAFKAN KESALAHAN KAU YANG PERMANENT DAN "sorry" KAU YANG TEMPORARY!

I think I swear

I will always love my Thurdayyyyyyyyyssssss! :D


My mood is really happy and balancing.

Happy Fill-in

I would [ buy and Apple iPod at Australia ] for [ 200 ] dollars.

If I had a [baby ] I’d name it [ Melissa Aurora].

My friend [ today ] is [ pregnant].

If I made a movie it would be about [ fat people] and I’d call it [ People with Fats.].

When I was [6 ] I was [a coward ].

My s/o (or ex) is such a [ whore]

Barack Obama [ is the underdog!].

Love is [ unpredictable].

If I was drunk I’d be more likely to [do it again].

If I could make my own man/woman, he/she would have [ long leg and arms], [ a guitar], and [ money and love and the moves on bed].

Everyone should take time to [ fuck alone, hehe].

If I could create my own heaven for when I die it would [ be pinkish].

This survey is [suitable for all ages] because [it's fucking clean :) ].

F words, serious.

Fuck,everything is fucking fine, myself is fucking great with my effing fucking attitude, im fucking tired when i need to here my fucking dudes babble, Fucking fuckers that intiminated me so fucking much and fucking annoying papers that are fucking miserable. Fucking to this fucking pc, fucking slow like a fucking poke.

... Feels fucking better :)


I told you the title is serious.

History Misery

Myyyyy, Ohhh myyyy, History paper 1 was not that hard la, but all of a sudden, dia tanya about chapter 2 form 5!If and only if I can talk to the paper!


Mel: Bitch, mengapa kau mesti muncul!
Unspoken Paper: Munis suruh ! :\ Damn.

*Note to self, whatever happens, your marks will be like Ayu's.

Failing Sailing fer Good.

My BM was more like sucky. I mean suck balls . I mean I dont know it sucks.

Specially For Broken-hearted People.

I'm sorry I fell for you
I'm sorry I asked you out
I'm sorry you hurt me
I'm sorry we spent time together
I'm sorry I held on to you
I'm sorry we kissed
I'm sorry we loved each other
I'm sorry you lied
I'm sorry I wanted you
I'm sorry we held each others hands
I'm sorry we walked in the rain
I'm sorry we took pictures
I'm sorry we made memories
I'm sorry I hurt you
I'm sorry I wasted my money
I'm sorry you wanted to die
I'm sorry we drifted apart
I'm sorry we sneaked around
I'm sorry we both wanted it
I'm sorry I let go
I'm sorry you were undetermined
I'm sorry we had differences
I'm sorry I was so stupid
I'm sorry we wasted time
I'm sorry we every met
I'm sorry you cant leave
I'm sorry I couldn’t say no
I'm sorry I talked to you that first day
I'm sorry it will never end


Mellsha Amiera.

:S

Why must things get so frustating in the end? Why can't we end something with joy? And minus the TEARS OF JOYNESS. That's shit.

Untuk Insan yang Ku Gelar Boyfriend.

Sorry


I’m sorry of being so emotional
I’m sorry of being so possessive
I’m sorry that I cry for you
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you

I’m sorry for the tears you shed
I’m sorry for the damage I made
I’m sorry I’ve made you sick
Sorry I hurt you so deep

I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I’m sorry for each and every fight
I’m sorry for your pain & agony
I’m sorry for the missing harmony

I’m sorry for my selfish love
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for my restlessness
I’m sorry for the losing grace

I’m sorry my friend I made you mad
I’m sorry darling you are so sad
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it’s my disgrace

I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much
I’m sorry I always miss your touch
I’m sorry of being so mad about you
I’m sorry for my every blue

I’m sorry of being so immature
I’m sorry now that can’t be cured
I’m sorry of being myself
I’m sorry that I’ve failed

I’m sorry and sorry again
I’m sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too?


This is very really meant for you , S.

I got life to do too.

I got life,
I got laughs,
I got freedom,
I got good times,

I got crazy ways
I got headaches and toothaches
And bad times too
Like you

I got my hair
I got my head
I got my brains
I got my ears
I got my eyes
I got my nose
I got my mouth
I got my teeth
I got my tongue
I got my chin
I got my neck
I got my tits
I got my heart
I got my soul
I got my back
I got my ass
I got my arms
I got my hands
I got my fingers
Got my legs
I got my feet
I got my toes
I got my liver
Got my blood

I got my guts
I got my muscles.

Saye pun nak mulakan hidup baru jugak :)

Lets begin our day with a smile and a tear in the end :) I memang :

-lemah orangnye sebab tk banyak ikutan yang TERPAKSA ikut.
-sensitive orangnya sebab at least i BERHATI PERUT and BERTIMBANG RASA.
-suka senyum orangnye, but when orang dah buat SIAL dalam hidup ni, terpaksa lah menangis.
-mengaku, you SEMPURNA orangnye. Tapi DALAM TIDAK.
-tak seDESPERATE orangnye, apa yang datang, ambil jelah.
-tak berSEPENDAPAT dengan you. Tapi apa yang ada, TERPAKSA ikut.
-tak suka diSURUH bagai kuli yang makan TAIK sendiri.
-tak SUKA gaya i? LAGI TAK SUKA gaya u.
-GAYA PLASTIC you.

Common Reboundation

The title has something to do with the content. that im not an ordinary rebound girl that you will always play along with. i smile, because the way you laugh is fucking ugly. i cried because the way you tell your sobbish stories patheticly ,


don't u ever think that we can be besties, just because we used to be together back then. And now, you're seeking for my forgiveness and you thought I cant live without you. Look around, you dont have someone who loves you know, just your parents and sibs. Look at my surrounding now,if you're about to dream, you'll see im going to have my boyfriend beside me, my mum at my left and im sitting on my dad's lap. At least i loved by people. But you, BOO-HOO you, you only got your one cheating girlfriend, once she cheated, you forgave her. Twice,you did the same thing too. Thrice, i dont know why you're so stupid to trust her just like that, In a SNAP. And you betrayed me and your dear little friends that helped you a lot. Every second wehh,lepas tu pompuan yang you fikirkan GIRLFRND tu, tolong u pun, mintak balik pembalasan.

THINK WISELY , YOU MIGHT LOSE EVERYTHING.

P.S//: YOUR FRIENDS TOLD ME. THANK YOU.

Makin lama, makin moody :|

sorry guys kalau terkasar bahasa dengan korang, sebab i feel strange these lately sbnarnye. macam something yang hilang. mcm pokok mangga yang telah cut down, i mean tumbang, and my grandparents, my dad's friend , my old friend, my ex-bestfriend. i don't think im going to tell anybody, some of my problems i mean. literally, yea.

Kisses here,kisses there.

What every kiss means
~Kiss on the stomach = I'm ready
~Kiss on the Forehead = I hope we're together forever
~Kiss on the Ear = Your my everything
~Kiss on the Cheek = You look so cute
~Kiss on the Hand = I adore you
~Kiss on the Neck = We belong together
~Kiss on the Shoulder = I want you
~Kiss on the Lips = I LOVE U

At then , I felt like crying

Dah dapat paper lagi, Oh maaaaaaaaaai ;(

EST:74%
PHYS: 60%
SEJ: 75%
CHEM: 30% pathetic sangat kan? very stupidddddddddddd


And i heard the news about there's only a person yang pass addmaths. God,I was effin' upset.


Luckily,my mum was okay about it. Icalled my dad, and he said, "tkpe,i never passed it either".

So they make me feel better now. Thnks Ayah, Ma.

Hasilnya :)

Setelah saye study , i mean like ok,study la jugakkan :P tapi at last bawak paper jugak masuk exam. Which is something only we know :D

English: 78% berdegup gila kot time nak amek paper tu , ahaha
ICT: 78% oklah kannnn , kot
Maths: 62% and saye sangat envy Ainaa sbb in the class dia sorng je dapat A , Grrrr
P.Islam: 80%, hikhik pencapaian yang paling tinggi yang penah saye capai. haha


i'll update some more :D

Anda Di-Tag :D

The Good friend : Alia
The Slow One: Alisha Nugget
The Pimp:Khidhr
The Good Little Church Girl : Mei Kuan Yee *Tracy
The Shy One: Hzirah
The One That Always Swears: Farah Ainaa
The Grumpy One: Epet
The One Who Always gets Hurt: Ameer Fahd
The One That Ups to No Good: :P
The Jock: Hisyam
The One with bad memory: Semua orang yang saye kenal :D
The Geek: Me
The Innocent One: Shima
The Goodie Two Shoes: Dayae
The Drama Queen: Erien
The Lazy One: Zik
The Gangster: Sofiadi :P
The Stylish One: Anem
The Flirt: Adib
Thr Tiny Dangerous One: Eila Nasir
The Tower: Bah
The One with all the Gossips: Anky
The Ladies Man:Yusno ? hahahahahaha
The One You can depend On: Alia
The Annoying One: Khairul
The Cutie Pie: Ayeesha
The Princess: Mama
The Funny Guy: Nabil :P
The Ones Thats Always Hungry: Me

I Love You List

*Zainormiza Zakaria
*Roslan Sahim
*Kamsiah
*Zakaria
*Muhd. Jimmy
*Maizatul Aneem
*Muiz Aiman
*Adi Yusuff
*Anas Takim
*Marlieya Ayeesha
*Bebik Timayah, Bebik Turini, Bebik Aisa, Bebih Ani (BEBIK KOMUNITY)
*Fawizah Fathir
*Fairuz Fathir
*Thish Fathir
*Ahmad Sofiadi
*Farah Ainaa
*Nur Alia Ruzalan
*Yusnur Yunus
*Dayae
*Achai
*Rosepet Delagend
*Dur Danah Mustaffah
*Adila Nasir
*Athirah Ruzalan
*Amiira Nugget
*Alisha Nugget
*Adib Mustaqeem
*Abe Chips-Lan
*Khidhr
*Muhd Azim Mustaffa
*Amar Ashraf
*Teacher Yusuf
*Hana Nashwa
*Teacher Rohaya
*Yusof Abd Halim
*Qamaruddin
*Amirrudin
*Hello Kitty
*Hefner :P

for being there for me.

Freedem! :D

Hih, today im so happy because i get to sleep well without thinking anything :p today is the last paper.

Maths: Erhhhh,ada satu soalan careless -_- can i have my paper back?

Agama: Ceh,boleh amek kertas lagi tu :p cikgu pun relax je ni haaa

ICT : Mak aihhh, cikgu tu relax je, ku pun mengambil kesempatan la, haha

Sejarah: Well,ustazah tu agak strict so tak tunjuk gangster sgt la :p


WHATEVER,ANYWAY IM STILL HAPPY

Exam Papers ; Yesterdays and Today

Bahasa Melayu : Go-for-it-mel!

Physics:Go-again :p

English: Someone-please-hit-me-on-the-head

Chemistry:I-think-i-need-to-call-999

Add Maths:I-helped-zikri-get-2 points. haha

Est: Wow-this-hard maaa? :|

sometimes i just love it hwen im gubra in add maths, hihi cheers!

A Day Full with Laughters

Hari ni Ainaa bawak phone dia sebab dah janji dgn anky. After that, mel pun explore la phone nya, main game, oh ya phone dia cantik, and ringan and slim! and ada sims2! mel pun macam batak sikit, main bowling, ingtkan bowling tu guna keypad, tapi bila instruction dia suruh menghayung kan pone tu, mel pun macam terkejut, haha owner phone tu pun tak tau sebenrnye -_- haha menghayun baru bowling ball tu gerak! hahahhaha. after dicover bowling, main joking, bahri siap bet rm5 lagi, dia ingtkan kite terer rasenye :p tp last last kite kalah , sebab part belok tu macam susah sikit. haha, last but not least, fishing! dia suruh melontar phone tu pulak, haha, ku pun nak melontar, tapi cikgu ada depan, bila cikgu pandang tmpat lain, ku sempat lah melontar tapi tk dapat ikan pun, Ainaa yang terer.

Lepas rehat,zikri nak main, so bagi lah dia main, dia main bowling siap diri lagi and hayun macam letting a bowling ball go, tak boleh blaaaaaaaa. -_- looks like a pro, tapi strike tak jugak, haha


Pastu Ainaa ngn Mel tnye bahri,

Mel:Kau ni bah,mcm tkde perasaan je ku tngok.
Bahri:Aku jenis yang sempoi.
Zikri:Bangga lah tu :p
Mel and Ainaa: Haha
Ainaa:Kau en ramai peminat, apesal macam tkde comitment?
Bahri:...... Pastu lie down
Mel: Eh bah? kau mkn dalam ke?
Bahri: ha? apesal pulak?


Hmm,bah mmg macam tu, relax orang nye. We all talked bout tamagochi laaa,digimon laa, bapak best sial. And the problem is i cant stop laughing. :D


LAstly,bila nak balik. Panties kite tersedut,then nak tarik , so pegi lah tmpat yang 'private' sikit. tp bah ternmpk, ku dgn muka tk malunya, buat peace je. hahahah

Pastu lepas ku keluar class pun dia pndang and sengih sengih je, ku bagi dia satu tumbukan di tangannnya :D


Hari ni sangat happy :)

My Shitty Shitty Day!

At last,real shit happens :) thnk you God.

First im happy for Ainaa, for her birthday.

Second,im happy with my Maths, sebab chapter baru its just about algebra :)

Third,shitty. Sebab someone ate her cupcake, i mean like secretly -_- its not like ainaa tak jemput u makan, apehal nak memalu, classmate je kot. Come on laaa lelaki bertelur,dont be like this.


Fourthly,Im loving my homeworks.

Fifthly, At the school canteen, i accidently sat on a chair that has chewed gum -_- omg! i really didnt notice it, i just sit and eat and talk to Min, and i was like, keling paria mane yang letak ni? -________- mencarik pasal!

Sixth,I have to have some rest. Hihi bye

Memang nak kata.

Show your boyfriend you love him.



What would you say to your ex/ex's?



Predict a favourite friend of yours.

Everybody Knows-John Legend

Lagu ni sebenarnya lagu break up , tapi suka lagu ni, kenapa layan macam tak suka, when kite sayang sangat that person, fikir fikirkan lah , How to make it work, and how to ease the hurt.



It gets harder every day, but I can't seem to shake the painI'm trying to find the words to say, please sayIt's written all over my face, I can'tFunction the same when you're not hereI'm calling your name and no one's thereAnd I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy, I still can't believe you found somebody newBut I wish you the best, I guess.'Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knowsHow to make it work, or how to ease the hurtWe've heard it all before, that everybody knowsHow to make it right, I wish we gave it one more tryOne more tryOne more try'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knowsI don't care what the people sayThey're probably lonely anywayBaby don't fill up your head with he-said, she-saidIt seems like you just don't knowThe radio's on, you tuning me out, I'm trying to speak, you're turning me downAnd I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy, I still can't believe you found somebody newBut I wish you the best, I guess.'Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knowsHow to make it work, or how to ease the hurtWe've heard it all before, that everybody knowsHow to make it right, I wish we gave it one more tryOne more tryOne more tryOne more try'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knowsOh I wish you'd understandOh, just an ordinary manListen we'd have knownEverybody knows, but nobody really knowsAnd I know one day you'll see, nobody has it easyI still can't believe you found somebody newI wish you the best, I guess.'Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knowsHow to make it work, or how to ease the hurtWe've heard it all before, that everybody knowsHow to make it right, I wish we gave it one more tryOne more tryOne more tryOne more try'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

What upsets me?

Im upset of myself, ppl would automatically hate you, because you're good at something, and will look at you for a reason and another.

Buying a Nikon would not make you a photographer, ape kepundek nye semua ini?

Jangan budget comel depan mata aku. Jgn nak control suara kau yang memang originally nya besar.

Jgn datang dekat kat aku, sebab kau tau aku akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk menjauhkan diri daripada kau.

Jgn text aku sebab kau telah menyakitkan hati aku, im very dumb to trust you on the first place.

Sebab aku hyper lah aku cakap semua benda ni, kalau kau ras tak penting jgn baca, aku type apa yang aku rasa. I write to express, not impress.

Jgn nak buat cite gempak, kalau hasilnya seciput je.

Jangan nak fikir aku ckp main direct, rasanya kau yang buat aku macam ni. aku bosan dipijak kepala.

Jangan ingat aku ni lemah sgt smpai apa apa yang kau mintak dari aku, aku bagi. Mcm babi kalau buat aku mcm ni.

Jgn nak membandingkan aku dgn orang lain, sebab aku memang suka jadi diri aku, kalau nak ubahkan orang, ubahkan diri sendiri dulu.

Jgn ckp aku sorang je yang salah, walhal kau pun terlibat sama.


Jgn kata aku gemuk,when im just bigger than you.

Jgn kata aku gelabah, when aku buat semua ni ada sebabnya.

ok, sambung yang tadi

Sekarang mel rase mel macam jahat, sebab cakap main lepas je. smpai bebudak ckp mel kerek dah, sebab mel dah tkde rase malu dengan dorang,seuma budget nak lepas je, mel malas nak simpan, like i was last year.

I wonder why?

Ku demam, and ku tahu kenapa ku demam -_- sebab berjalan bnyk sgt mase tu, hari sabtu yang keagakan macam 'pesta' tu, haha, 3 hari ku tak pergi sekolah ni, ainaa pun dah rindu ku sakan sakan nih,homework ku pun bertimbun timbun, presentation pun , nayh tak yah risau pun ah , :p Ku kat rumah just tido je, then makan ubat, then tido, smpai boyfriend ku pun tk puas hati sebab ku tkde masa untuk dia, memang setiap hari lah gado, I wonder why eh? :(

Macam nak nangis nih :(

Tapi mel tak nangis jugak! sebab mel orangnya kuat dan tabah :D kan ainaa? tapi yang masa maths i tak reti nak buat bid tu kite lupakan je eh, serious doe cikgu ajar laju sgt, i cant catch uuuuupppppppp :( i cried sikit . hehe.

I really need,

-to make friends.
-to reduce my weight -_- wtf 63 kg?
-to be more patient and try not to leave home.
-to buy Ainaa something, Vans shoes kot.
-to fix my relationship with adi.
-to learn my past to build a whole new month that im going to start on the 1st FEb.
-practise more add maths and maths so that i can show my brother that im super duper lagi hebat than him! muahahahah!
-to shop less and eat less.
-stop watching porn. :p sheeesh
-stop reading books :( ; only when it is super emergency!
-make myself comfrtble when im around public.


*:D i really really have to!

Sometimes It's Gonna Rain :(

I know i'm fat, tapi jgnlah tegur :(


End.

Some Kantoi'ness :D

That girl there, yup a friend of mine when I was deeeeeeep hearted 5 :p We do things together, I mean we even pottied together too. Haha , seronoooooooook lah aliaa! :D Dia tido rumah I, so macam splendid happy aa sebab ada kawan. Hehe.

1st Day.

Semuanya baik baik. and we talked about our memories masa dulu smpai sekarang, Sumpah kelaka. Like .

Mel: Kite tak nak kawan awak! Kite nak barbie tu!

Alia: Kite amek dulu, tu kite punya la,awak main yang tu!

Haha, comel jeeeek :p

2nd Day.

Enough of talking and she got a phone call from her friend from bangi. Nak pertolongan actually. Then dia suruh kitorang (Me, My sister and her sister) coverkan untuk dia. Haha sounds stupid kan sebab i tak penah buat benda macam ni actually. Haaa,then mama tnya. Where's alia? I havent seen her a whole day? then i cakap, dia dalam toilet. Time tu ok lagi. And we texted alia that dia akan bertolak lepas subuh, so macam relief lah sikit sebab tmorrow will be fine. I mean would be :p Pastu mama kejut untuk smyang subuh. Haha part ni best! Mama kira tau, then tanye alia mane. I ckp dlm tooilet. Adik aku dah bngun dah tapi buat buat tido! babi fucker! hahah,pastu mama check the toilet,nobody's there. then she checked the whole house. Aku memang duuppp daaaaap gegila time tu!Ohhh FUCCCCCKKKK OHHH GOOODDDDDDD. :D Then i text alia

Mel: Alia, busted. We're busted! Seriously! BUSTED GHILA!

Alia: Ohhh maaan, yang bantal buat macam shape orang tu?

Mel: anem tido lasak sgt dooo,tak jadi orang dah.

Alia:What the fuck,man. Haiyo.

Mel: Call me weh, talk to mama

Mama and alia's conversation.

Mama: alia kat mana ni?

Alia: Kat bangi, tido rumah hanan.

Mama:Kenapa alia buat macam ni, bagitau la kalau alia nak balik bangi . auntie dah menggigil lutut dah ni, tngok anak orang dah hilang.

Alia: Alia takutt, nanti auntie nomi tak bagi.

Mama:Hiiiissh,next time tell me. Let me know.

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Mama pandang kitorang.

Mama: Korang tau kan Alia kelua? Knape tak bagitau mama.

Mel:Kakak pun takut ma, tak tau nak backup sape.

Mama: Ni bukan hal back up2. Mama fkir yang buruk buruk je skrg ni. Hmmmm.

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Ku tidur balik. bngun pukul 11 :D Ching!

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Alia bawak kawan dia sekali. Hanan, andMai -_- (mai pretending to be hanan's siter)

Haha pandai lah korang ni :p Then told mama what happened from A-Z. Dah settle. Then Alia dating dengan En.Baki a.k.a Wan Mohd Akram.

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Malam tu mama takde rumah. Pegi opening SUA kat Bukit Jalil. Kete semua ada. Pastu Alia and I nak buat dajal. Bawak kete tu, bersiar siar. Hahah,tapi pakai seatbelts aaa sebab takde Rm300. Hahahahah :p jejoget lagu To the Ayer :p cheit,macam Nigga mari sudaaa.

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3rd Day.

Nothing

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4th Day.

Nthing happened.

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5th Day.

As usual.

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6th Day.

Haaaaa, ni best skit. Alia nak jumpa boyfie dia kat bawah. Then i followed her, ontheway ke bawah tu , aku nmpk ayah aku. haha pastu ayah tanye kiorang dari mana? cakap aaa dari padang nak bagi booklist kat kawan :p Pastu ayah suro pass ice kat mama sebab ayah nak pegi gunting rambut yang memang dah tkde rambut tu -_- sheesh. Pastu masuk ikut pintu belakang.

Mama tnye dari mana. Then I answered, ayah drop by kitorang tadi, kitorang ikut pegi kedai.

hak hak hak! Pandai jugak aku :9 Pastu terus I mintak kunci kete mama. Then amek boyfie alia kat padang and beli topup . Hehe, Like mama cakap, Kalau korang dah dapat kete, macam jakun je. Hahahahahah, sampai hati mama :p

Pastu alia balik and Saya jumpa boyfrnd saya! Saya rindu dia :) Seronok cecuti ni.

I Have to Stop.

Stop whining ! This Without maid thing messed my life up. I cant even say the right word to myspacers. My lifeturned up to be boring. Like Welcome to Mel's Boredoom Doom's Day. Perghhhhh. Im not looking forward to be what I am not, cuma tak selesa la. IDK what the fuck am i talking about but i know, i really know i getting started to feel a little overwhelming now. Now now where should i start. O h yea, I went to Penang for my ' Sweet Escape'. Aint that sweet I tell you. I was effing sick ans didnt shop a lot -___- Me, Kak Ngah and Mak Lang to some places. Which I Reallllllllllyyyyyyyy LOVVVVVVEEEEEe. Queensbay Queensbay, Sebab sale dia memang bapak tebeliak mata. ILYQ. Then I went to Kedah for more, Langkawi, Ooops, tak smpai lagi :D Thailand! Sedikit lagi! Uncle! SEtapak je boleh? We didnt bring our passports along so kak ngah decide to have a tiny bit step on thailand side. WHICH IS NOT GOING TO CHANGE ANYTHING. WE'RE TALKING :FIRST TIME ON THAILAND HERE. HISTORYY.

Ohhhhh,Mel ada Pak Su comeeeel! Umor dia baru standard 4. Paksu saya pemalu, botak pulak tu. Mel ingt masa mel standard 5,dia suka main bola, agak terer lh. And then main swing kat luar rumah dia. Tapi sekarang dah takde. Mel tnye jugak, mane hilang swing? dia cakap . Takde orang nak main dah so tebang pokok tu. Uwwww ;( Seronok pulak mase tu. Lagi lagi bila dulu mel agak ringan en? Terpusing pusing. Hahaha. Tak macam MBSA punya.

Pak Lang , very the quiet. But bila cakap about study, -____________________- I DONT LIKE IT. HE BORES ME. MAMA! YOUR BROTHER -IN-LAW IS BORING! .

It ends here.

Sekian Lama, Hello 2009

I''m anxious about next year. I'm going to sit on a HUGE exam. Sijil Peperiksaan Malaysia, weyy fikir title ni macam 'eleeh,SPM je'. sorry sikit okay, title ni lah what im craving for :p HAHA, bapak semangat nak pekse nih. Azam-azam mesti ada :

1.I want to ignore all the bullshets.
2.Living life all of my own and living with people that i know.
3.Launching dreams.
4.Make people around me smile, or smirk pun jadi lah! :D
5.To collect my Cecilia Ahern's books and collect all my books back from some frnds -_- gimme back! Jean Ure's are my fav!

6.Vanish aay my shopping spirit everytime i see shoes or so whatever. At least my pope is happy when i 'BIJAK BERBELANJA'. haha if dengan yeaaa, but dgn ayah, just pick and pay *seronok
7. Pass Addmath yang suck-a-lot-of-shitteys. Chem and Physics. Take ART lah! Makanan gua :p cheit
8.Sembahyang penuh. HEH
9.Tak nak main main banyak kot. Wow,perangai nisusah nak padam, oh well.
10.If 9 tu masih melekat, so semua ni just like a piece of crap lah!

haha
11. I'll Love Myself For Being So Fat and Fab and a girl that people loves to hang out with :)

Budak Yang Senang Di Buli

Aku tak boleh nak kata NO to them. Okay,cerita dia macam ni. dorang selalu and suka and gemar and minat pinjam barang aku, example, correction tape -_- roller coaster dorang panggil? Errk. I know it sounds silly sebab hal kecik pun jadi masalah. TETAPI! diorang guna ikut sesuka hati and fikir aku macam supplier? gila kau, turn aku nak guna, dah habis. FUCK FUCKFUCK. guna pun tak ingt dunia. Like HELLO! kaalau tkde correcter and tersalah tu crosskan jelah guna pen, tau nak lawa je. aku pun guna macam tulah, tak heran lah sgt pun. anyway, beli lah sendiri. Yang aku pun satu, susa betul nak cakap " Tak boleh kat dorang". Boleh tu boleh lah, tapi tak sampai hati kot nak buat macam tu, sebab we'll stick like about one more year kan? so I must be nice to them, if not they'll hate me like hell. cukup lah they imitated me by my SPEAKING. Orang speaking sikit nak kecoh, suka hati lah nak selesa macam macam punya pasal . Fikir korang betul sgt? FUck to some classmates -_-