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why must you keep on comparing ma? i not going to be like someone im not, totally not. i know i dont always satisfies you. but He created me like this, He sets this attitude for me. Maybe i were never like you, we might look the same, but we're different, i was never as smart as you. i was never the head of a community, only when a teacher is so desperate to pick one. i am never going to be a good cook like you either, why must you ask me to cook when you have another daughter to rely on, or even your sons. i tried to be like you when i was a kid, but suddenly, i grew up slowly, and you keep on comparing me to your friend's children, how does that feels ma? i nver compare you to anybody because i accept you just the way you are. eventhou sometimes you were too protective, and i hated hat, i didnt even say a word, but things change, i realized that i have the rights to speak, i spoke, and u didnt agreed. you'll say, this is right for you, this and that, but why cant i make my own decisions? and i thought, maybe im the only female in your family that is stupid? a girl with average scores, i knwo how you reacted when i got my results, you were not happy with that, you said that you were okay with it, but whenyou say it to other people, you wanted more. i cant give you more than i can afford to give. im not SMART LIKE YOU, MA! or even my cousins, NEVER. and until then, im not able to think what im able to do.deep inside, i really like to make you happy with your messed up condition, but i changed my mind, its hard to forgive and forget what you said.


Menangis bole membatalkan puasa,
Melissa Amiera , name given by MakTok, not you, Ma.