You guys

Selamat Berpuasa okay :) and i'll be gone for a few months

Eyy, scaryy.

Bukan scary hantu, scary nak trial ;\ bole tak trial ni easy come and easy go? BOLLLLLLEEEEEEEH TAAAAAAK?


Cuak,
Mel

Down under

I love the pathetic life of mine. It's so pathetic until I can't compare it to anything.

Marah? Marah la, apesal semua nak condemn aku? Mestilah marah!

Happy? Happylah, sikit lagi nak habis sekola, nak move on. Happpy la!

Sedih? Sedih lah mesti! Ditinggalkan, diabaikan, ditolak-ketepikan.

Geram? Geram kot, sebab percaya sangat benda yang mungkin akan happen, hppen? Bullshit(DOT).

Nak mencarut? Nak, tapi bukan kat sini



I got this weird mixing feelings,
Mellsa Amiera, fuck you F.

Boredom Fills

When you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, what's the first thing you say?
Eyyy,bila nak end this pimple war?

2. How much cash do you have on you?
RM 3 J

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"?
BEST

4. Favorite planet?
Planet Earth :D

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Girlfriend<3

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?
Happy Together

7. What shirt are you wearing?
I LOVE CHOCOLATE ,

8. Do you "label" yourself?
Currently, no.

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
Oliver Crocs, Crocodile

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Bright

11. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I slept early, so maybe I snored?

12. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
“Mama just nak jaga hati awak kot.”

13. What's a saying that you say a lot?
“I don’t give such shit” “Go away” “What?” “seriously”

14. Who told you they loved you last?
Akif?

15. Last furry thing you touched?
Horna Horni he gave me

16. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days?
I don’t do drugs, sorry

17. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
none

18. Favorite age you have been so far?
3 until 14 J

19. Your worst enemy?
I wont mention, but shouldn’t belong here

20. What is your current desktop picture?
Hello kitty by Tarina Torontino

21. What was the last thing you said to someone?
“You’re just being paranoid”

22. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?
a million bucks J ehheh, nak dua dua!

23. Do you like someone?
yea, not only like him, I love him too ;p

24. The last song you listened to?
Brian Mcknight – Back At One ok ok nak tagggg! ; siape siape yang tngok :D

diadiadiadiadiadiadia

dia bagi saye semangat! terima kasih dia :) MuAackkZz 200x


*rempiters

bukan ingin mengutuk, tetapi emm tetapi?,
Mellsa Amiera

Gerak Gempur yang menggerakkan.

Tadi kan, ade exam BM, bila diorang dah start susun meja, i felt like crying, my heart thumps really fast, and i didn't read a single thing -_- and i thought i would fuckin blow off this one. a few mins later, teacher dah start distributing the papers, and i talked to myself, "BOLEH MEL,BOLEH".


Suddenly, dah buka, hm "TAK BOLEH NI". tahu tak apesal, sebab ade pantun enam kerat, i tak baca yang itu kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! *merungut yang manja dan bengang.


Tapi tak, i didnt give up, i buat je rumusan and so on, so on, so on, and brake. Kenapa brake? dah sampai satu section ni, about bahasa and istilah, hm, dah tak tau mane salah bahasa o istilah. Ainaa pandang saya, saya pandang balik -_- . Ainaa pandang lagi, saya buat muka pelik, *naik hantu weh, fikir pasal benda ni. cara duduk pun dah lain aw , pity me.

Em, tak tau the answer, had a talk with Amzar, dia pun macam saya juga. Bah , jangan kata,Zik dah tidddddo, haha dah kena warning twice dgn Yah. Akhirnya, i spent my cramp buttocks on the chair for 2 hours and a half. Alhamdulillah , sebab tak terikat dengan hasutan Ayu,

NAK TAHU DIA HASUT APA? mel, stop lah buat, relaxx la ;p
beeeeeet, reply ke Ayu . Yu, kalau mel ni pandai memang mel stop la, ni sebaliknya,ape cite en?

Nak cite kertas 1! kertas 1! cepat cepat! :D

I breathe slowly, buka papernya. Wat thi fak? Pasar Tani? nak ada point apa? -_- Macam biasa lah, toleh kiri kanan, tapi ni saye tengok Ainaa dah nak masuk second paragraph, "Na,tunggu lah!". Tengok kanan, Amzar pun dah start. and I was like "Apesal berfunction gila otak kau lepas rehat ni?". Em, saya rasa tense bila berada di tengah tengah, saye cover muka saye dengan tudung*nak nangis, tak boleh, tak boleh nangis, kena nangis, no, kuat sikit mel, ni baru test biasa, susunan meja je yang membuatkan kau cuak.

yea, saye mula menulis, saye tulis, tulis (....) yaay! perenggan ke-empat. Ainaa kate , pandai pun tulis. haha bangga kejap, fokus, fokus lagi, fokus lagi banyaak, eh, siap? :p haha


dah tu buat yang serious matter punya, i cant stop asking Ainaa, partitioning dalam malay is? is? haha, Puan Norsyam pun usha je, pastu Qima tolong jawabkan, haha, Thnks :D membahagikan, rremember mel, remember. Kalau dah sampai masa nak buka mulut, buka juga, sambil buat and cakap dengan Ayu? haha, Ayu pun layan je. Tapi magic lagi, saye siap, Yeyaay! ;D

then, tengok ameer and bahri kutuk sesama sendiri :)

love plus exhausted,
Mellssa Amiera dot

Im going to choose jiwang all the way.

Hihi, post ni kalau dah baca the title, semua nak geli geliman, but seriously, bila tgh down, dengar lagu like some that we called "rempit rempit-ans", hey they're even better expressers than us. some songs made me cry, because the lyrics were the perfect shot towards my feelings here. there are about friends, love, mostly love la kan. jgn tipu saye, saye tau semua orang pernah denga lagu geli geli mcm ni, like "Halahai, tertune-in Sinar.Fm pulak" haha, you all saje :p


I hate , well i dont hate, i accidently hate 30% of this guy. This guy that made me love him once, but there's nothing between us anymore. I wanted him back once, no, i mean twice. Sounds desperate ey? But, when you are damn hecking sure about it, why don't you just give it a try then.

Thank God, there's someone would cheer me up by playing his guitar and singing Nobody by Wonder Girls, a boy from Sinagpore, this entry would probably be the same as my sister's that assumed this guy is her boyfriend. In your dreams ;p haha but seriously, i listened to his singing over and over again. nak tngok vid tu, go to my sister's.




dengan perasaan garang+marah+sedih,
Mellsa Amiera

Biar dia terasa

I pity the fools who believe in you
because I know someday now, they'll see your colours too.
And if you see a smile, besides my face, know I'm doing good now.
Since you've been erased.


haha, entahlah, tak tau pun ni untuk sape, tapi ni yang saye rase saye nak type. end dia mmg pedih, tapi terimalah :)

getting out of the shell

Genes may play a role, but there are ways to overcome it.

"I had lots of friends, but I had no dates," Carducci, the director of the Indiana University Southeast Shyness Research Institute, said of his youth. Shyness is "something that I work at."


Recipes for shyness ,
shyness requires a sense of self — which develops only after about 18 months of age. It involves feelings of excessive self-consciousness, negative self-evaluation and negative self-preoccupation.

"Shy people operate as if thy have a mirror in front of them all the time," he told LiveScience.


A shy disposition

In a nutshell, shy people want to be outgoing and friendly, but can't seem to figure out how to do it, Carducci said.

They are also slow to "warm up" in new social situations, partly because they are so self-conscious.

"They'll go to a social function, but if they're not comfortable within 10 minutes, they'll turn and they'll run," Carducci said.

They may be social and have friends, but they tend to do the same things over and over again with the same small circle of people, rather than exposing themselves to new social situations.

Carducci points out, however, that shyness is not related to self-esteem. People can be confident in certain aspects of their lives—they may be able to give presentations in front of hundreds of people—but the thought of making small talk with a stranger might make them extremely anxious.

Don't be shy of a cure

There are a number of approaches to overcoming their shyness.

One is through relaxation training. People might try imagining themselves in different social situations while taking slow, deep breaths to keep calm.

Chasing cars, chasing time

Hello, im back. and i really wish i could be happy like i was 5 years back then. but today, i felt the happiness, at school and even at home. who made me feel this way? classmates or sure, they are heck of fun :) i learned 3 things from Bahri, and i teached him one thing. the dont-you-dare head shake with the gedik finger ;p and seriously bah and ameer, you guys are not gedik natural . Haha. oh and maybe i ate some KISSES choclates, thnks K :) "i cant give you real kisses, but i can give these kisses, i hope you love it." this is just so sweet, but he is a friend now. talking about friends, this is a survey about them.


Friendliest: dur danah mustaffa
Prettiest: anis nabila mansur
Most talkative: norzasyakila zakaria
Most arrogant: hazirah?
Most inmature: allysa nugget, shazmin hashim, ainur sabreena, hurul hamid
.Most mature: siti nurul idayu bt abd sapian
Most perfect: alia ruzalan
Most obsessive: alia ruzalan, muhd khidhr
Richest: mirya sahhudin
Most unlucky: khairul syazwan?
One you've known for longest: alia ruzalan
One you can most relate to: alia ruzalan
One that is most like you physically: haha not a friend, tapi ade satu , kat 5C ;p
One that you've known for the less longest: hanan manan
One that has the best grammar: haqqima raj
One that shares your hobbies: alia ruzalan, hidayah zaili razib, haqqima raj
One shares your musical interest: haqqima raj , farah ainaa
One that you have slept over their house more than 5 times: alia ruzakan, dah mcm rumah sendiri :)
One that never slept over your house: semua except alia, i trust her :)
Skinniest: farah ainaa, rafidah james, natasya amira
Smartest: stacey eng, helshiela julies
Stupidest: naqqiudin
One that dyes their hair most: adzfar mudh banhawi
One that has the darkest hair color: entah, semua asian, so semua kot ;p
One that has the lightest hair color: entah, dorang tak tayang pun :)
One that paints their nails more often: hafizah hani razali
Most gangster: khidhr, ahmad sofiadi, ahmad wafa'a, naqib, fahmi
Most creative: alia ruzalan, wafa'a, haqqima and me ;p haha

i didnt meant to hurt your feelings, this is what we called no MERCY !

craving

im having a harsh year, and i need to be alone. away

Thnkyoufrnds.

Make me cry, make me now! Its a stupid thing to cry over you. My friends got so demanding and i received some un-easy comments.

• "He has someone else Mel."
• "Don't you think she is better for him?"
• "Let it go Mel."
• "Fuck him for letting things go."
• "I might want to get out of your shell a bit."
• "Mel, bagi jelah, bukan laki you pun.".
• "You tngok la , let's see how far they'll go."
• "She is a kid -_-."

Some of the comments helps. But some of it, i cant really get over it, im sorry guys. i know i could be much more stronger if i face up my challenges without thinking about him. and do not stalk his MySpace.

+But guys, he said that he wasn't sure about it :( un-easy comments :

+i told you mel, its not going to be like it usually does. things goes around.

+Cari lah boyfriend dekat U. lagi handsome.

+Mel, remember, you dah tngok He's just not that into you kan? maybe macam tu la

+Apa apa pun, dia still akan contact that girl, belakang you kan? who knows syg?

Yang ni kurang sikit orang nak comment, sebab buntu dah kot, tak tau nak buat apa? Should i trust this guy, like i trusted him before?

a simple picture, extravagant meaning

Desperate?

Broken hearts left with open wounds
Somehow yours healed real soon
Unfortunately, I'm still here
Left with guilt, pain and fear
I'm glad that you're all right
With no more tears left to fight
But why are things still this way?
Why are there no words to say?
If we talk we fight and complain
I'm always left with nothing gained
I hurt you- then it was your turn
And like a candle I was burned
I made mistakes that I regret
Big deal, that's life, forgive-forget
With so much life I've left to live
I know I have even more to give
I'll do my best- with my head held high
To make mistakes, learn and never cry.

i never been so desperate before. this is what i feel, it took me 2 hours and tears to finish this up.

Summarized it,

Watched this documentary on HBO, the story titled "To Be Fat Like Me". Its says that, fat people use to get offended by others. the girl in the story is actually skinny, and she wants to make this mission a secret from others. her mum was skinny and beautiful but as soon as she got her second son, she wasn't aware with her diet, when Alyson, is an athlete. she was ashame of her mother eating disorder. her mum was fat, to me, its possible for adults to get fatter than when they were young.

i jotted down a few things, it says that, we shouldn't be ashamed of ourselves , why would people want us to be to? being fat is not that we have to bully ourselves, taking aweself back , when you want to do something, do it, asking a girl or a guy out, go for it, its not like we're going to die after that, try that out, it wont hurt a thing. in a matter of fact, we're getting our boost of confidence even better.im not a pro at this, but this is what i think , yea because im fat too, i can feel their feelings in the story. who are them to judge us? not to all the readers though, for those who are somehow like me :)

i want to ask, how the heck can we be confident when people cant stop making fun of us? give us time, its not a problem to you. you're not the one who gives us food or money to buy candy bars.
realise it people, its big people with a big heart. deep inside i think, fat people is sensitive, they'll show it when theres a tube of chunky monkey ice cream in front of them. truth hurts. so am i, im mad at those who called me Fat, im not fat, im just a bit bigger than you, and im more into food. you cant expect i would be skinnny in a few days, aneroxic? hmm, i did this, i sticked my finger into my throat, and starting today i became someone that is "not eating". thnks to those who made me like this, i know it sounds stupid, hmmm its been 4 days now. btw, we still can love that person even we're mad at them? and i didnt burst into tears , im comfortable now.

Hello, this is FML.

Apa lagi yang hendak di FML kan lagi? Oh ada satu, pasal tak puas hati with this is guy. Kasi la nama dia A ok :) cantikkkkkkkk. pujaan kot? kalau bukan , tkde orang la nak dia kan? tapi ada orang kata to him "im kinda fucking love him". haha, mel nangis sebab terkejut kejap. sekejap kot? straight 40mins, semuanya berlaku dalam bilik abang, and called Nur Alia Ruzalan, dia cerita about her father, and it was fucking shocking. Kenapa hari ni semuanya macam ni? Bukan tak menerima, tapi mahu tahu punca.

Ya, mostly people akan cakap , kita nak besar-besarkan hal yang remeh, selagi tak ada solution dia, selagi tu maw bising. Saye macam tu jugak, tipulah, saye ni benda remeh temeh pun saye boleh uat gaduh, tak caye cuba tanye A. dia dalam hati mesti ckp saye ni suck and all. walaupun dia dah ada prempuan tu, saye still boleh anggap dia macam something to saye. saye tak nak tulis yang buruk buruk pasal dia. Sapik kata tak elok, nanti nampak mcm saye ni teruk. Sapik! mmg saye teruk lah! :) sapik kate, bukan dia takde, saye tak boleh hidup. betul jugak cakap dia, kat U lagi bnyk varities. tapi saye tetap mahu menjawab, saye ckp what if kalau tkde orang nak saye :|, persoalan tu kan? tapi lama lama of course ada, kalau boleh saye nak belaja jauh-jauh smpai takyah jumpa A lagi, tapi orang Islam tak elok saling benci-membenci kan. saye sedar yang hidup ni susah kalau tak pandai nak uruskan and suka cari pasal. mcm saye! :D


saye pun nak tahu punca dia je? sebab saye rapat dengan W dulu? Oh, tu dulu, skrg mana ade, dia busy and mem-busykan diri, saye pun cool jelah, saye ade kawan. kawan saye ade lah dalam 20 orang yang saye suka talk with. paling paling sekali Alia la, sbb dia suka dnga saye mencarut. * dia ajar!. second, ainaa, keemy,azim muztapha, yuseno, cha, epet and so on. Ayu pun! kalau nmpk dia online lah, saye cepat2 buzz dia dan straight foward cite kat dia! haha, ni mmg tak sabar punye case. saye pun tak tahu la saye type ape ni, tapi yang saye tahu hari ni mmg tunggang terbalik.

DA-MN

WHY MUST YOU BE SO DAMN FILTHY YOU BEIGTCH !

I rindu semua ni!

God, i felt like i havent type much ay? i didnt feel like typing these couple of days. im busy with my work, homework, chores? :P haha there was no chores for me, and im soo not proud of that. i miss those days when i used to hang out and play basketball with Ira, and and peeking around guys playing with their skateboards, TOPLESS, i repeat, TOPLESS. Haha, its fun tho, but now they finished their studies here, and went, i dont know -_- i barely love looking at someone that i dont know, weird? what the heck? Ni Mell laaaaaaa =)

there are couple of things that i miss doing it :
*minum milo kat luar! :D
*comment di MYSPACE? haha
*lepak dgn bebik community. Hey, ada yang saye kamceng!
*going out with mama, mama belanja books ;( bila lagi nih?
*drawing :( hey, i dont have the chance to do this tooo!
*reading my un-read storybooks.
*make some collages, dey, this year buat satu je, ni pun untuk class ;(
*ber-gossip cite pasal boifren dengan Ira.
*ber-gossip cite pasal sape tkde dara, haha, hey, this is a true fact about our school, if you need bitches, go to this class, 5*.
*talking on the phone with Ya.
*texting Kak Shaza, she's no longer here, Toodles to UK.
*tidy up my wardrobe? haha i dont have time for this either, my clothesare SO-OFF-THE-SCENE.
*cant really do this project D:


Maybe i can collapse if i dont do these listed things.

Super Boost

Something amazing happened to me on 18th July 2009, 1.15 p.m.


and it would be my 4th secret.

Ugly Betty Season 3, overall

The Season Finale of Ugly Betty Which Leads To Season 4 Story Line..
As Usual, There's No Happy Ending For Ugly Betty Which Makes Me Thinks What Happen Next Season.

The Questions Are....

*How About Betty's Love Life...??
*How She Gonna Face Matt As Her Boss....??
*Who is Actually Wilhelmina Saw in Her Apartment....?
*Who is Claire-Calvin's Child?
*How Daniel Face Molly's Death?
*What About Marc...??
*How About His Position at M.O.D.E?
*Will Wilhelmina Found Connor....? *
Will She Survived in The Company?

There's Been Rumors Betty's Braces Will Be Removed... Just Wonder How Beautiful Betty Would Look Like...
:-P