Between men and beasts.

Even bigfoots can express their feelings to their women, i mean, females? erk

Re : Student's life. My student life. Inspired by Raja.

1. All of us would hate Mondays, and get excited on Fridays.
-singing Negaraku, and such. You know, you've been there.

2.I choose my favourite teachers, and subjects, and practicals, and homeworks.
- English, EST, Miss Ili, Pn Zulmazlina.

3. i would go to Ameer when he has his guitar around him, eventually on Thursdays.
-nyanyi jiwang songs, u give me the lyrics, i study it at home :)

4. Each morning I will see people hanging around outside the school compound.
-hisap rokok, maybe that is what they call their breakfast.

5.I would see some minah who wears 'kain gantung' also known as 'banjir'.
-dude, they really want us to check their legs, even hairy ones.

6. Used to be the 'kunci keeper'. but lately, im being so 'malas' and fed up.
-please rate and hate me for being fed up :)

7. Budak lelaki akan hisap rokok pada waktu rehat, even time puasa pun. hish.
- akan ku berkata dalam hati, ape lah smorang nak tunjukkan kat kite? hisap rokok tu macho? pelislah.

8.Examinations , kita akan buat tak tau je, macam study biase, bukan itu ke yang kite semua harapkan?
-saye pun tak sedar sedar lagi :)

9.People, especially girls, who only brings some branded bags, heh, kelaka, cuba bawak plastic Giant , tengok macam mane.
-sekola je kot , ape yang kau orang try nak tunjuk :)

10. Disiplin yang hilang kemana, ke kantin bila bila sahaja. Saye dgn Ainaa suka buat macam.
-semua ni Ainaa yang hasut :) haha

11. Semua nak berlagak berani. Cuba kalau 'keling handsome' tu ada depan mata , semua orang lari.
-Hey orang orang, kenapa lari? :P

12. Competetive dalam class, yang sihat takpe kot, kalau sampai nak menjatuhkan orang lain. -Hmm, ade isi tersirat ke?

13. Jadi diri sendiri, memang susa pun nak cari diri kita, tapi jadi la macam biasa, jangan control2, last last tau jugak saye perangai awak.
-jangan lah mara, kite semua sayang awak, awak tu annoying sikit je :)

14. Seorang dua tu , janganlah tak bertegur sapa, kang dah habis sekola, baru nak rindu, sape rugi, kite masing masing dah la duduk jauh jauh.


Kekeringan idea. Sekian,
Melissa Amiera , 5F 2009.

He makes my day.

entry yang tak payah baca pun takpe

why must you keep on comparing ma? i not going to be like someone im not, totally not. i know i dont always satisfies you. but He created me like this, He sets this attitude for me. Maybe i were never like you, we might look the same, but we're different, i was never as smart as you. i was never the head of a community, only when a teacher is so desperate to pick one. i am never going to be a good cook like you either, why must you ask me to cook when you have another daughter to rely on, or even your sons. i tried to be like you when i was a kid, but suddenly, i grew up slowly, and you keep on comparing me to your friend's children, how does that feels ma? i nver compare you to anybody because i accept you just the way you are. eventhou sometimes you were too protective, and i hated hat, i didnt even say a word, but things change, i realized that i have the rights to speak, i spoke, and u didnt agreed. you'll say, this is right for you, this and that, but why cant i make my own decisions? and i thought, maybe im the only female in your family that is stupid? a girl with average scores, i knwo how you reacted when i got my results, you were not happy with that, you said that you were okay with it, but whenyou say it to other people, you wanted more. i cant give you more than i can afford to give. im not SMART LIKE YOU, MA! or even my cousins, NEVER. and until then, im not able to think what im able to do.deep inside, i really like to make you happy with your messed up condition, but i changed my mind, its hard to forgive and forget what you said.


Menangis bole membatalkan puasa,
Melissa Amiera , name given by MakTok, not you, Ma.

six sweeties :)

Orange ; reminds me of someone who is sarcastic and has all of this enthusiasm to make me feel good. He was all sweet and funny. Once, he sang me a Happy Birthday song by his guitar and yeah his dorm friends sang along too, and when he is on his own, he would always dedicate a song for me. Short, and sweet. He sang me some Barney's songs too! The I love you song? Man,that was history, I mean nobody ever sang for me all sensitive like that. And a few weeks later, he sent a package for me, by hand. I mean by his friend's hand, and his friend's cousin is my schoolmate, physically and mentally shocked at that time, but moving on, i opened it, and awwww, a barney plushie :') and a pouch with a button on it. And letter said that, the pouch was sewn by himself, he uses his bantal busuk cloth,and he thanked his mum for teaching him to sew.Cute huh? :P

Rainbow : This dude is super cool and super funny. He is a footballer, and i thought was his body type should be like a footballer should have -_- but he doesn't take it seriously, is just how the way wants it. he told me that when he was in standard 5, he was this chubby kid, and yeah i still got the picture, haha. on the 30Th Dec 2007, my mum's birthday, we were on. seriously it was memorable, frankly, we don't have anything in common, maybe his sense of humour turned me up. in our relationship, there were more Downs than ups. he's just too open and spontaneous until we had a fight. a big one, major big. but he would never leave me like that, he would come and see me and bought some Ribena drinks, 1901 hot dogs, anything to cheer me up though. he is a gentleman, but after a year and a half later, we broke up for some reasons, and he even text ed my mum to apologize his wrongdoings. i told a friend of mine and he said

Friend : Gentle :) knape kena break?

My mum showed the text message to my cousins.

Cousins : heh, kelaka :p

Green and Pink : Heyy this guy is the fastest guy I've ever get attached to! i mean attach bukan couple la, tapi like suka. this happens this year before my birthday. he is an old friend on Myspace, he was like a brother to me at that time, i was 15 and he's 17 and i really think that at age 17 was too old for me to like. but when i grew 17, i really dont think 19 is a number to me. He was all this crazy and stuff. Artistic too. then, jumpa di Yahu, and he asked ,

Him : ini mel yang gila tu ?
Mel : gila ape ni?
Him : kat myspace.
Mel : oh, bila dah tkde myspace, dah tk gile la :)
Him : haha :))

We chatted for hours, until time dia nak main futsal pun, dia tak nak kelua rumah. Haha, he is a great guy, i liked him once, but now, yes, only a brother to me.

Dark Purple : this guy, i can mention his name! because he is a special friend, i dont know, more than a bestfriend less than a boyfriend? haha you figure things out. oh wait, a super duper friend if it counts. heh, Adib bin Hamid. Firstly, i thought he was this EMO kid who has eating disorder, i never see him smiling, not even once. He is a myspace friend too, but all of his pictures we're all scary and berlagak EMO -_- after 2 years knowing him, understand his problems, no wonder lah dia mcm tuuuu! nak perli budak emo, (2007 and 2008 and macam semua budak nak jadi emo and pakai payung yang burok tu, bodo malaysians :| ) he is traight, for sure, he got loads of crushs and got crushed by too. He got this mat salleh looks, very handsome i tell you :) a listener too, he listens to everything, the karuts and the facts, but i think there were more karuts than facts, haha thats what i like about this friend, follow my flow. Oh yea, he loves to share his screamo songs with me T.T

Pink : F, awwwww he is super shy , non-talkative, but a skater -__- , hard to believe, but he is the way he is, (selalu tegur kot bila dia kurang bercakap). I call him perobak because he told me that when a lorry cam by to his house he would shout "Perobak, perobak! " haha very cute thought, he is cute! :D azim wants him! Disebabkan dia kurang bercakap, so kurang lah pasal dia , heh, sekian :p


Green and Yellow: : I've known him for well about 2 years now? An ex's bestfriend,firstly i thought he would want to maki maki me -_-, doe, ex aku ni berdendam wey. but then, my thought was totally wrong, he became a friend, and we talked, damn we talked about two hours using the house phone, and it costs me a lot too, we had a fight, as soon as i received the telephone bill. and he was like, oh okay la tu. thats when we haven't talk fo months, creephead, i hate you. but the end of July, we started okay as friends, like normal things should be. So, evrything is great now, sometimes we trade question sheets, and i called him MRSM Penipu , suka dapat soalan bocor, lalu, dia marah :) what do i care, he would never be mad at me. what makes me so sure? -_-



six sweeties by melssa fatty.

This girl

what should i call her? a love-wrecker? spoiler that spoils everything? don't blame her, she's just fucking 15 :) that guy would defend her so, whatever i said would be a one dot bullc*ap.


Let it be short but meaningful to me.


Stand still,
Mellsa Amiera

Subang Perit

Semalam went to Subang Parade, nak beli baju kurung for this year, hurm, it end up by shopping di Soda dan Voir , haha . Tapi at last beli la jugak a pair of baju kurung di Sireh Pinang, ni pun satu crisis, dah berkenan kat this baju kurung, tapi XS :| *dang


Kakak tu cari punye cari, and TAKDE :( * dang lagi

Nampak Crocs Hello Kitty , tapi Ayah tk bagi beli * dang dang danggggggg


ni die , tolong peliss sesape





Being Happy and such,
Mellsa Amiera

You guys

Selamat Berpuasa okay :) and i'll be gone for a few months

Eyy, scaryy.

Bukan scary hantu, scary nak trial ;\ bole tak trial ni easy come and easy go? BOLLLLLLEEEEEEEH TAAAAAAK?


Cuak,
Mel

Down under

I love the pathetic life of mine. It's so pathetic until I can't compare it to anything.

Marah? Marah la, apesal semua nak condemn aku? Mestilah marah!

Happy? Happylah, sikit lagi nak habis sekola, nak move on. Happpy la!

Sedih? Sedih lah mesti! Ditinggalkan, diabaikan, ditolak-ketepikan.

Geram? Geram kot, sebab percaya sangat benda yang mungkin akan happen, hppen? Bullshit(DOT).

Nak mencarut? Nak, tapi bukan kat sini



I got this weird mixing feelings,
Mellsa Amiera, fuck you F.

Boredom Fills

When you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, what's the first thing you say?
Eyyy,bila nak end this pimple war?

2. How much cash do you have on you?
RM 3 J

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"?
BEST

4. Favorite planet?
Planet Earth :D

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Girlfriend<3

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?
Happy Together

7. What shirt are you wearing?
I LOVE CHOCOLATE ,

8. Do you "label" yourself?
Currently, no.

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
Oliver Crocs, Crocodile

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Bright

11. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I slept early, so maybe I snored?

12. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
“Mama just nak jaga hati awak kot.”

13. What's a saying that you say a lot?
“I don’t give such shit” “Go away” “What?” “seriously”

14. Who told you they loved you last?
Akif?

15. Last furry thing you touched?
Horna Horni he gave me

16. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days?
I don’t do drugs, sorry

17. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
none

18. Favorite age you have been so far?
3 until 14 J

19. Your worst enemy?
I wont mention, but shouldn’t belong here

20. What is your current desktop picture?
Hello kitty by Tarina Torontino

21. What was the last thing you said to someone?
“You’re just being paranoid”

22. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?
a million bucks J ehheh, nak dua dua!

23. Do you like someone?
yea, not only like him, I love him too ;p

24. The last song you listened to?
Brian Mcknight – Back At One ok ok nak tagggg! ; siape siape yang tngok :D

diadiadiadiadiadiadia

dia bagi saye semangat! terima kasih dia :) MuAackkZz 200x


*rempiters

bukan ingin mengutuk, tetapi emm tetapi?,
Mellsa Amiera

Gerak Gempur yang menggerakkan.

Tadi kan, ade exam BM, bila diorang dah start susun meja, i felt like crying, my heart thumps really fast, and i didn't read a single thing -_- and i thought i would fuckin blow off this one. a few mins later, teacher dah start distributing the papers, and i talked to myself, "BOLEH MEL,BOLEH".


Suddenly, dah buka, hm "TAK BOLEH NI". tahu tak apesal, sebab ade pantun enam kerat, i tak baca yang itu kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! *merungut yang manja dan bengang.


Tapi tak, i didnt give up, i buat je rumusan and so on, so on, so on, and brake. Kenapa brake? dah sampai satu section ni, about bahasa and istilah, hm, dah tak tau mane salah bahasa o istilah. Ainaa pandang saya, saya pandang balik -_- . Ainaa pandang lagi, saya buat muka pelik, *naik hantu weh, fikir pasal benda ni. cara duduk pun dah lain aw , pity me.

Em, tak tau the answer, had a talk with Amzar, dia pun macam saya juga. Bah , jangan kata,Zik dah tidddddo, haha dah kena warning twice dgn Yah. Akhirnya, i spent my cramp buttocks on the chair for 2 hours and a half. Alhamdulillah , sebab tak terikat dengan hasutan Ayu,

NAK TAHU DIA HASUT APA? mel, stop lah buat, relaxx la ;p
beeeeeet, reply ke Ayu . Yu, kalau mel ni pandai memang mel stop la, ni sebaliknya,ape cite en?

Nak cite kertas 1! kertas 1! cepat cepat! :D

I breathe slowly, buka papernya. Wat thi fak? Pasar Tani? nak ada point apa? -_- Macam biasa lah, toleh kiri kanan, tapi ni saye tengok Ainaa dah nak masuk second paragraph, "Na,tunggu lah!". Tengok kanan, Amzar pun dah start. and I was like "Apesal berfunction gila otak kau lepas rehat ni?". Em, saya rasa tense bila berada di tengah tengah, saye cover muka saye dengan tudung*nak nangis, tak boleh, tak boleh nangis, kena nangis, no, kuat sikit mel, ni baru test biasa, susunan meja je yang membuatkan kau cuak.

yea, saye mula menulis, saye tulis, tulis (....) yaay! perenggan ke-empat. Ainaa kate , pandai pun tulis. haha bangga kejap, fokus, fokus lagi, fokus lagi banyaak, eh, siap? :p haha


dah tu buat yang serious matter punya, i cant stop asking Ainaa, partitioning dalam malay is? is? haha, Puan Norsyam pun usha je, pastu Qima tolong jawabkan, haha, Thnks :D membahagikan, rremember mel, remember. Kalau dah sampai masa nak buka mulut, buka juga, sambil buat and cakap dengan Ayu? haha, Ayu pun layan je. Tapi magic lagi, saye siap, Yeyaay! ;D

then, tengok ameer and bahri kutuk sesama sendiri :)

love plus exhausted,
Mellssa Amiera dot

Im going to choose jiwang all the way.

Hihi, post ni kalau dah baca the title, semua nak geli geliman, but seriously, bila tgh down, dengar lagu like some that we called "rempit rempit-ans", hey they're even better expressers than us. some songs made me cry, because the lyrics were the perfect shot towards my feelings here. there are about friends, love, mostly love la kan. jgn tipu saye, saye tau semua orang pernah denga lagu geli geli mcm ni, like "Halahai, tertune-in Sinar.Fm pulak" haha, you all saje :p


I hate , well i dont hate, i accidently hate 30% of this guy. This guy that made me love him once, but there's nothing between us anymore. I wanted him back once, no, i mean twice. Sounds desperate ey? But, when you are damn hecking sure about it, why don't you just give it a try then.

Thank God, there's someone would cheer me up by playing his guitar and singing Nobody by Wonder Girls, a boy from Sinagpore, this entry would probably be the same as my sister's that assumed this guy is her boyfriend. In your dreams ;p haha but seriously, i listened to his singing over and over again. nak tngok vid tu, go to my sister's.




dengan perasaan garang+marah+sedih,
Mellsa Amiera

Biar dia terasa

I pity the fools who believe in you
because I know someday now, they'll see your colours too.
And if you see a smile, besides my face, know I'm doing good now.
Since you've been erased.


haha, entahlah, tak tau pun ni untuk sape, tapi ni yang saye rase saye nak type. end dia mmg pedih, tapi terimalah :)

getting out of the shell

Genes may play a role, but there are ways to overcome it.

"I had lots of friends, but I had no dates," Carducci, the director of the Indiana University Southeast Shyness Research Institute, said of his youth. Shyness is "something that I work at."


Recipes for shyness ,
shyness requires a sense of self — which develops only after about 18 months of age. It involves feelings of excessive self-consciousness, negative self-evaluation and negative self-preoccupation.

"Shy people operate as if thy have a mirror in front of them all the time," he told LiveScience.


A shy disposition

In a nutshell, shy people want to be outgoing and friendly, but can't seem to figure out how to do it, Carducci said.

They are also slow to "warm up" in new social situations, partly because they are so self-conscious.

"They'll go to a social function, but if they're not comfortable within 10 minutes, they'll turn and they'll run," Carducci said.

They may be social and have friends, but they tend to do the same things over and over again with the same small circle of people, rather than exposing themselves to new social situations.

Carducci points out, however, that shyness is not related to self-esteem. People can be confident in certain aspects of their lives—they may be able to give presentations in front of hundreds of people—but the thought of making small talk with a stranger might make them extremely anxious.

Don't be shy of a cure

There are a number of approaches to overcoming their shyness.

One is through relaxation training. People might try imagining themselves in different social situations while taking slow, deep breaths to keep calm.

Chasing cars, chasing time

Hello, im back. and i really wish i could be happy like i was 5 years back then. but today, i felt the happiness, at school and even at home. who made me feel this way? classmates or sure, they are heck of fun :) i learned 3 things from Bahri, and i teached him one thing. the dont-you-dare head shake with the gedik finger ;p and seriously bah and ameer, you guys are not gedik natural . Haha. oh and maybe i ate some KISSES choclates, thnks K :) "i cant give you real kisses, but i can give these kisses, i hope you love it." this is just so sweet, but he is a friend now. talking about friends, this is a survey about them.


Friendliest: dur danah mustaffa
Prettiest: anis nabila mansur
Most talkative: norzasyakila zakaria
Most arrogant: hazirah?
Most inmature: allysa nugget, shazmin hashim, ainur sabreena, hurul hamid
.Most mature: siti nurul idayu bt abd sapian
Most perfect: alia ruzalan
Most obsessive: alia ruzalan, muhd khidhr
Richest: mirya sahhudin
Most unlucky: khairul syazwan?
One you've known for longest: alia ruzalan
One you can most relate to: alia ruzalan
One that is most like you physically: haha not a friend, tapi ade satu , kat 5C ;p
One that you've known for the less longest: hanan manan
One that has the best grammar: haqqima raj
One that shares your hobbies: alia ruzalan, hidayah zaili razib, haqqima raj
One shares your musical interest: haqqima raj , farah ainaa
One that you have slept over their house more than 5 times: alia ruzakan, dah mcm rumah sendiri :)
One that never slept over your house: semua except alia, i trust her :)
Skinniest: farah ainaa, rafidah james, natasya amira
Smartest: stacey eng, helshiela julies
Stupidest: naqqiudin
One that dyes their hair most: adzfar mudh banhawi
One that has the darkest hair color: entah, semua asian, so semua kot ;p
One that has the lightest hair color: entah, dorang tak tayang pun :)
One that paints their nails more often: hafizah hani razali
Most gangster: khidhr, ahmad sofiadi, ahmad wafa'a, naqib, fahmi
Most creative: alia ruzalan, wafa'a, haqqima and me ;p haha

i didnt meant to hurt your feelings, this is what we called no MERCY !

craving

im having a harsh year, and i need to be alone. away

Thnkyoufrnds.

Make me cry, make me now! Its a stupid thing to cry over you. My friends got so demanding and i received some un-easy comments.

• "He has someone else Mel."
• "Don't you think she is better for him?"
• "Let it go Mel."
• "Fuck him for letting things go."
• "I might want to get out of your shell a bit."
• "Mel, bagi jelah, bukan laki you pun.".
• "You tngok la , let's see how far they'll go."
• "She is a kid -_-."

Some of the comments helps. But some of it, i cant really get over it, im sorry guys. i know i could be much more stronger if i face up my challenges without thinking about him. and do not stalk his MySpace.

+But guys, he said that he wasn't sure about it :( un-easy comments :

+i told you mel, its not going to be like it usually does. things goes around.

+Cari lah boyfriend dekat U. lagi handsome.

+Mel, remember, you dah tngok He's just not that into you kan? maybe macam tu la

+Apa apa pun, dia still akan contact that girl, belakang you kan? who knows syg?

Yang ni kurang sikit orang nak comment, sebab buntu dah kot, tak tau nak buat apa? Should i trust this guy, like i trusted him before?

a simple picture, extravagant meaning