Everybody Knows-John Legend

Lagu ni sebenarnya lagu break up , tapi suka lagu ni, kenapa layan macam tak suka, when kite sayang sangat that person, fikir fikirkan lah , How to make it work, and how to ease the hurt.



It gets harder every day, but I can't seem to shake the painI'm trying to find the words to say, please sayIt's written all over my face, I can'tFunction the same when you're not hereI'm calling your name and no one's thereAnd I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy, I still can't believe you found somebody newBut I wish you the best, I guess.'Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knowsHow to make it work, or how to ease the hurtWe've heard it all before, that everybody knowsHow to make it right, I wish we gave it one more tryOne more tryOne more try'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knowsI don't care what the people sayThey're probably lonely anywayBaby don't fill up your head with he-said, she-saidIt seems like you just don't knowThe radio's on, you tuning me out, I'm trying to speak, you're turning me downAnd I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy, I still can't believe you found somebody newBut I wish you the best, I guess.'Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knowsHow to make it work, or how to ease the hurtWe've heard it all before, that everybody knowsHow to make it right, I wish we gave it one more tryOne more tryOne more tryOne more try'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knowsOh I wish you'd understandOh, just an ordinary manListen we'd have knownEverybody knows, but nobody really knowsAnd I know one day you'll see, nobody has it easyI still can't believe you found somebody newI wish you the best, I guess.'Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knowsHow to make it work, or how to ease the hurtWe've heard it all before, that everybody knowsHow to make it right, I wish we gave it one more tryOne more tryOne more tryOne more try'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

What upsets me?

Im upset of myself, ppl would automatically hate you, because you're good at something, and will look at you for a reason and another.

Buying a Nikon would not make you a photographer, ape kepundek nye semua ini?

Jangan budget comel depan mata aku. Jgn nak control suara kau yang memang originally nya besar.

Jgn datang dekat kat aku, sebab kau tau aku akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk menjauhkan diri daripada kau.

Jgn text aku sebab kau telah menyakitkan hati aku, im very dumb to trust you on the first place.

Sebab aku hyper lah aku cakap semua benda ni, kalau kau ras tak penting jgn baca, aku type apa yang aku rasa. I write to express, not impress.

Jgn nak buat cite gempak, kalau hasilnya seciput je.

Jangan nak fikir aku ckp main direct, rasanya kau yang buat aku macam ni. aku bosan dipijak kepala.

Jangan ingat aku ni lemah sgt smpai apa apa yang kau mintak dari aku, aku bagi. Mcm babi kalau buat aku mcm ni.

Jgn nak membandingkan aku dgn orang lain, sebab aku memang suka jadi diri aku, kalau nak ubahkan orang, ubahkan diri sendiri dulu.

Jgn ckp aku sorang je yang salah, walhal kau pun terlibat sama.


Jgn kata aku gemuk,when im just bigger than you.

Jgn kata aku gelabah, when aku buat semua ni ada sebabnya.

ok, sambung yang tadi

Sekarang mel rase mel macam jahat, sebab cakap main lepas je. smpai bebudak ckp mel kerek dah, sebab mel dah tkde rase malu dengan dorang,seuma budget nak lepas je, mel malas nak simpan, like i was last year.

I wonder why?

Ku demam, and ku tahu kenapa ku demam -_- sebab berjalan bnyk sgt mase tu, hari sabtu yang keagakan macam 'pesta' tu, haha, 3 hari ku tak pergi sekolah ni, ainaa pun dah rindu ku sakan sakan nih,homework ku pun bertimbun timbun, presentation pun , nayh tak yah risau pun ah , :p Ku kat rumah just tido je, then makan ubat, then tido, smpai boyfriend ku pun tk puas hati sebab ku tkde masa untuk dia, memang setiap hari lah gado, I wonder why eh? :(

Macam nak nangis nih :(

Tapi mel tak nangis jugak! sebab mel orangnya kuat dan tabah :D kan ainaa? tapi yang masa maths i tak reti nak buat bid tu kite lupakan je eh, serious doe cikgu ajar laju sgt, i cant catch uuuuupppppppp :( i cried sikit . hehe.

I really need,

-to make friends.
-to reduce my weight -_- wtf 63 kg?
-to be more patient and try not to leave home.
-to buy Ainaa something, Vans shoes kot.
-to fix my relationship with adi.
-to learn my past to build a whole new month that im going to start on the 1st FEb.
-practise more add maths and maths so that i can show my brother that im super duper lagi hebat than him! muahahahah!
-to shop less and eat less.
-stop watching porn. :p sheeesh
-stop reading books :( ; only when it is super emergency!
-make myself comfrtble when im around public.


*:D i really really have to!

Sometimes It's Gonna Rain :(

I know i'm fat, tapi jgnlah tegur :(


End.

Some Kantoi'ness :D

That girl there, yup a friend of mine when I was deeeeeeep hearted 5 :p We do things together, I mean we even pottied together too. Haha , seronoooooooook lah aliaa! :D Dia tido rumah I, so macam splendid happy aa sebab ada kawan. Hehe.

1st Day.

Semuanya baik baik. and we talked about our memories masa dulu smpai sekarang, Sumpah kelaka. Like .

Mel: Kite tak nak kawan awak! Kite nak barbie tu!

Alia: Kite amek dulu, tu kite punya la,awak main yang tu!

Haha, comel jeeeek :p

2nd Day.

Enough of talking and she got a phone call from her friend from bangi. Nak pertolongan actually. Then dia suruh kitorang (Me, My sister and her sister) coverkan untuk dia. Haha sounds stupid kan sebab i tak penah buat benda macam ni actually. Haaa,then mama tnya. Where's alia? I havent seen her a whole day? then i cakap, dia dalam toilet. Time tu ok lagi. And we texted alia that dia akan bertolak lepas subuh, so macam relief lah sikit sebab tmorrow will be fine. I mean would be :p Pastu mama kejut untuk smyang subuh. Haha part ni best! Mama kira tau, then tanye alia mane. I ckp dlm tooilet. Adik aku dah bngun dah tapi buat buat tido! babi fucker! hahah,pastu mama check the toilet,nobody's there. then she checked the whole house. Aku memang duuppp daaaaap gegila time tu!Ohhh FUCCCCCKKKK OHHH GOOODDDDDDD. :D Then i text alia

Mel: Alia, busted. We're busted! Seriously! BUSTED GHILA!

Alia: Ohhh maaan, yang bantal buat macam shape orang tu?

Mel: anem tido lasak sgt dooo,tak jadi orang dah.

Alia:What the fuck,man. Haiyo.

Mel: Call me weh, talk to mama

Mama and alia's conversation.

Mama: alia kat mana ni?

Alia: Kat bangi, tido rumah hanan.

Mama:Kenapa alia buat macam ni, bagitau la kalau alia nak balik bangi . auntie dah menggigil lutut dah ni, tngok anak orang dah hilang.

Alia: Alia takutt, nanti auntie nomi tak bagi.

Mama:Hiiiissh,next time tell me. Let me know.

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Mama pandang kitorang.

Mama: Korang tau kan Alia kelua? Knape tak bagitau mama.

Mel:Kakak pun takut ma, tak tau nak backup sape.

Mama: Ni bukan hal back up2. Mama fkir yang buruk buruk je skrg ni. Hmmmm.

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Ku tidur balik. bngun pukul 11 :D Ching!

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Alia bawak kawan dia sekali. Hanan, andMai -_- (mai pretending to be hanan's siter)

Haha pandai lah korang ni :p Then told mama what happened from A-Z. Dah settle. Then Alia dating dengan En.Baki a.k.a Wan Mohd Akram.

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Malam tu mama takde rumah. Pegi opening SUA kat Bukit Jalil. Kete semua ada. Pastu Alia and I nak buat dajal. Bawak kete tu, bersiar siar. Hahah,tapi pakai seatbelts aaa sebab takde Rm300. Hahahahah :p jejoget lagu To the Ayer :p cheit,macam Nigga mari sudaaa.

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3rd Day.

Nothing

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4th Day.

Nthing happened.

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5th Day.

As usual.

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6th Day.

Haaaaa, ni best skit. Alia nak jumpa boyfie dia kat bawah. Then i followed her, ontheway ke bawah tu , aku nmpk ayah aku. haha pastu ayah tanye kiorang dari mana? cakap aaa dari padang nak bagi booklist kat kawan :p Pastu ayah suro pass ice kat mama sebab ayah nak pegi gunting rambut yang memang dah tkde rambut tu -_- sheesh. Pastu masuk ikut pintu belakang.

Mama tnye dari mana. Then I answered, ayah drop by kitorang tadi, kitorang ikut pegi kedai.

hak hak hak! Pandai jugak aku :9 Pastu terus I mintak kunci kete mama. Then amek boyfie alia kat padang and beli topup . Hehe, Like mama cakap, Kalau korang dah dapat kete, macam jakun je. Hahahahahah, sampai hati mama :p

Pastu alia balik and Saya jumpa boyfrnd saya! Saya rindu dia :) Seronok cecuti ni.

I Have to Stop.

Stop whining ! This Without maid thing messed my life up. I cant even say the right word to myspacers. My lifeturned up to be boring. Like Welcome to Mel's Boredoom Doom's Day. Perghhhhh. Im not looking forward to be what I am not, cuma tak selesa la. IDK what the fuck am i talking about but i know, i really know i getting started to feel a little overwhelming now. Now now where should i start. O h yea, I went to Penang for my ' Sweet Escape'. Aint that sweet I tell you. I was effing sick ans didnt shop a lot -___- Me, Kak Ngah and Mak Lang to some places. Which I Reallllllllllyyyyyyyy LOVVVVVVEEEEEe. Queensbay Queensbay, Sebab sale dia memang bapak tebeliak mata. ILYQ. Then I went to Kedah for more, Langkawi, Ooops, tak smpai lagi :D Thailand! Sedikit lagi! Uncle! SEtapak je boleh? We didnt bring our passports along so kak ngah decide to have a tiny bit step on thailand side. WHICH IS NOT GOING TO CHANGE ANYTHING. WE'RE TALKING :FIRST TIME ON THAILAND HERE. HISTORYY.

Ohhhhh,Mel ada Pak Su comeeeel! Umor dia baru standard 4. Paksu saya pemalu, botak pulak tu. Mel ingt masa mel standard 5,dia suka main bola, agak terer lh. And then main swing kat luar rumah dia. Tapi sekarang dah takde. Mel tnye jugak, mane hilang swing? dia cakap . Takde orang nak main dah so tebang pokok tu. Uwwww ;( Seronok pulak mase tu. Lagi lagi bila dulu mel agak ringan en? Terpusing pusing. Hahaha. Tak macam MBSA punya.

Pak Lang , very the quiet. But bila cakap about study, -____________________- I DONT LIKE IT. HE BORES ME. MAMA! YOUR BROTHER -IN-LAW IS BORING! .

It ends here.

Sekian Lama, Hello 2009

I''m anxious about next year. I'm going to sit on a HUGE exam. Sijil Peperiksaan Malaysia, weyy fikir title ni macam 'eleeh,SPM je'. sorry sikit okay, title ni lah what im craving for :p HAHA, bapak semangat nak pekse nih. Azam-azam mesti ada :

1.I want to ignore all the bullshets.
2.Living life all of my own and living with people that i know.
3.Launching dreams.
4.Make people around me smile, or smirk pun jadi lah! :D
5.To collect my Cecilia Ahern's books and collect all my books back from some frnds -_- gimme back! Jean Ure's are my fav!

6.Vanish aay my shopping spirit everytime i see shoes or so whatever. At least my pope is happy when i 'BIJAK BERBELANJA'. haha if dengan yeaaa, but dgn ayah, just pick and pay *seronok
7. Pass Addmath yang suck-a-lot-of-shitteys. Chem and Physics. Take ART lah! Makanan gua :p cheit
8.Sembahyang penuh. HEH
9.Tak nak main main banyak kot. Wow,perangai nisusah nak padam, oh well.
10.If 9 tu masih melekat, so semua ni just like a piece of crap lah!

haha
11. I'll Love Myself For Being So Fat and Fab and a girl that people loves to hang out with :)

Budak Yang Senang Di Buli

Aku tak boleh nak kata NO to them. Okay,cerita dia macam ni. dorang selalu and suka and gemar and minat pinjam barang aku, example, correction tape -_- roller coaster dorang panggil? Errk. I know it sounds silly sebab hal kecik pun jadi masalah. TETAPI! diorang guna ikut sesuka hati and fikir aku macam supplier? gila kau, turn aku nak guna, dah habis. FUCK FUCKFUCK. guna pun tak ingt dunia. Like HELLO! kaalau tkde correcter and tersalah tu crosskan jelah guna pen, tau nak lawa je. aku pun guna macam tulah, tak heran lah sgt pun. anyway, beli lah sendiri. Yang aku pun satu, susa betul nak cakap " Tak boleh kat dorang". Boleh tu boleh lah, tapi tak sampai hati kot nak buat macam tu, sebab we'll stick like about one more year kan? so I must be nice to them, if not they'll hate me like hell. cukup lah they imitated me by my SPEAKING. Orang speaking sikit nak kecoh, suka hati lah nak selesa macam macam punya pasal . Fikir korang betul sgt? FUck to some classmates -_-

BOO-hoo

im just having the worst day ever, this is not the first time for confirmation. It started out at school, I've got to carry 10 textbooks and 3 little ones, of course to return it. And then I got charged for RM2.00 for not wrapping the textbooks. I was Ok,this is a lil bit awkward. 2 ringgit pun tak cukup nak beli plastic and selophentape, macam sial. and then masa balik, I bought a Choco Iced Blended, it wasnt yummy yummy, sebab orang lain yang buat. more like a traineee nak amek upah, Like HELLO, you nak spm, pegi lah sekola! -__- you gimme chocolate shit! Gimme my money back, shit! Urgh, then i got hom and check my phone, ok i've waited for an hour for him to text me (friday prayers) . and then, he's not in a good shape. so I have to be "ok meeeeel, stop being so emotional,dia ada hati jugak, maybe he's hurt right now". On the secong thought, why cant he share his problem -_____________- lagi lah panjang muncung aku, dia fikir i cant be his besfrnd too. By, if you ead this, im so sorry. but this is how i feel. You cant hide your feelings kan? you've promised you'll share everything kan? even our boxers :P I care about you by. Ok, the serious part is when bila bngun dari tido je i dah start hashum hashum and feeling sicky, Uh-oh, dont tell me that i am demam! macam bebudak lah demam ni, Pastu selalu dngar mama cakap " Kakak dah mkn panadol? Lepas ni tido " Ohhhhh this is why i hate being sicky.