Macam ni pulak saye rase,

wah wah wah hari ni sangat penat! langsung takde masa nak mengade ngade dengan sesape pun! harap maklum, saye busy dengan keje kayu saye lagipun -,- some said, "SPM lagi penting". ye betul, tapi ada orang buat saye marah ssgt, saye pun marah la sesangat sekarang ni! bukan sebab die kacau saye buat keje, die buat saye sakit hati bnyk bnyk!



*kepada readers, jgn la terasa diri anda yang telah menyemak dlm notis di atas :)

Easing

God, penatnye ;(

I would have babies, not with you.

Biasanya i always tell a friend of mine about you, sweet things about you though :) nothing bitter, and nothing too sour. but sour to me because you treat me like *h**, im sorry, but i felt so s**tted by you. but i dont know why i still like you, your AURA maybe? ada ke something like AURA ni? i guess AURA ni affected myself so much, you bnyk sakitkan hati i, tapi i know how to ease the hurt, by not contacting you.

terima kasih bebnyk kat you yang pamper i kekadang :) tapi rasa like i yang terhegeh-hegeh, i mean over-reacting ke? yea, over. when you pun tak ambil kisah, you ambil kisah kot -,- tapi tak mahu tunjuk. ego mungkin? i percaya egois tu wujud. tapi a friend of mine ada cakap ni.

FRIEND : mel, cuba you yang buat dia terhegeh-hegeh kat you. it seems fair to me.
MEL : idea yang menarik, tapi tak sampai hati, i love him :
FRIEND: if dia sampai hati buat u mcm tu, kenape you tk boleh? kan?
MEL : saye cuba ye friend.

ni, tgh tunjuk la ni yang saye kurang kisah pasal dia :) im trying, giving it till the maxx.
:(

Kakak act,

went to maktok's. i wore something that i really didnt wish to wear. forced? i dont think its a suitable word, i dont know how to describe. i wasnt ready. mama once said, " ni wajib dibuat, tak boleh ready or tak ready". so yea, thats true.

bm boleh?

so lame lame kemudian, mama dengar like bunyi kereta mak teh. then all of sudden, mama nak comment the shirt i wear, its not actually a shirt, a blue blouse. and bukan mak teh pun.

Mama: makteh nampak nanti, kang makteh bising.

Kakak: knape pulak? dah kira okay kot apa kakak pakai ni? semua nak dnga ckp dia, jgnlah kasi dia control life kakak, jgn jadi hypocryte sgt.

Kak Ngah: betul la tu ape mak teh tegur.

mama ajak ke depan, kak ngah bawak garnier punya facial wash. then i asked, nak buat facial ramai ramai ke? ohh tak, things get ugly.

Mama: kakak, betullah ape mak teh tegur tu, she cares about her niece, mcm mama tegur kak ngah jugak. *grabbed my hand.

And i felt like leaving, tapi i have to sit.Then mama dah start touch about dosa-dosa and about me being a big girl. man im 17 :) i started crying.

there are things i have to say but i didnt say a single word. *crying.

kakak memang salahkan mama sekarang ni. mama dulu takde nak ajar kakak benda benda ni semua, bila kakak pakai apa2 , you dont even care, bila dah besar panjang ni baru nak suruh pakai stokings, loose clothes, tudung that covers everything, its not like i didnt try, tapi tadi tu i tried, i tried to be open-minded and i listened to her advices. kak ngah kata take it slowly, one step at a time, tapi tngh one step la ni, mama bukannye boleh a step a time, mama nak sekali langkah besar. kak ngah tak tahu, mama pun tadi tak confess yang mama suruh mcm mcm sekali gus. kakak yang kena tanggung all this,kakak tahu semua orang pun kena buat benda yang sama and benda yang tak mendatangkan dosa, kakak boleh buat apa yang mama suruh, its just jgn push kakak, kakak pun bnyk fikir jugak, cuma tak bercerita, dah la kakak ni slow, nak fikir this and that, kakak tahu apa kakak buat sekarang ni, the thing is kakak memang dalam progress to change how i wear. mama tak nmpk semua tu, bukan nak tunjuk keras kepala kakak ni, i just know it, kakak pun ada time yang kakak tak nak orang control cara hidup kakak, kakak boleh rely on myself jugak. and kakak tak blame mama for this , cuma marah, sebab pasal orang yang lebih kuat agama sikit dari kita, nak kena rasa diperkecilkan. mama selalu ikutkan apa yang orang kata. tu yang kakak tak suka pasal mama, orang cakap semua betul ,and kalau dah dapat approval from diri mama, terus nak buat and expect kitorang buat benda yang sama. boleh ikut, tapi mengambil masa la, kakak dah tahu tanggungjawab kakak sekarang ni, jgn risau, kakak selalu ingt Allah. Sorry if kakak tak cakap apa apa dekat kak ngah or fawi after that, kakak rasa kena attack secara mengejut, kakak boleh ditegur tapi takes time to 'makan' those advices.

*thank you mama, kak ngah and fawi.

1906! Thnks :)

1. Wafaa : hehe secret nih :)
2. 0172636648? : Happy birthday melissa amiera bt roslan!
3. Alia : hey, happy 17th birthday to you miera! erm, hp kite kena rampas kat sekola.
4. Keemiko : melly! happy birthday dear! moga panjang umur and murah rezeki, ily.
5. Adib Bolton : mel, happy birthday kay, sorry lambat :)
6. 0193711224? : !!! Happy befday!!!
7. Ainaa: mel,happy bday! may god bless you. wey sorry lmbt wish. smlm i tk larat nak tunggu.
8. Cikgu Akma: haa? bday kamu eh? happy bday and i hope awak dpt straight A's ye :)
9. 5F students :D

1. haha sorry guys yang 40 wishes tu semua yang sama, thnks for wishing btw :D

Today again

Everything went so well :)

Today

aku balik rumah saje aku terasa lapar dan malang : sebab aku tak sangka result aku seteruk ini, hampa weh. aku banyak banyak buat solat taubat, aku nak mintak maaf kat mama sebab meninggikan suara kat dia. sorry mama, i love you :') kat ayah pun sama, sebab cepat sangat memberontak bila tak dapat apa yang aku nak.


sorry jugak kat farah ainaa isa, disebabkan aku puasa, aku tkley nak teman dia pergi ambil buku kawalan, go ainaa! you can go solo! * sorak sorak guna pom pom kuning. and juga kepada puan shanti, bukan melissa tak sayang cikgu, sayang saje, tapi jangan la treat kawan kawan saye yang tak amek EST tu mcm tu :( tak baik. kalau cikgu buat mood saye baik, saye baik le dengan cikgu.

pagi tadi, mama pesan, pakai pakaian yang tutup aurat, i was mad at first, tapi wth kan, she's my mum, selagi aku duduk dengan dia, selagi tu aku denga cakap dia. pakai loafer pun, pakai jelah. petang tu, aku dah start pakai something yang memang tak dijangkalah, korek punya korek, jumpa satu blouse yang cute dalam almari -,- dah lama beli tapi tak pernah pakai pun, nasib baik muat. * sorak sorak lagi! pakai pom pom pink! mama pun puji, suka kalau kena puji dgn mama, terasa macam a princess :) mama kate kakak good girl, heish, malu ! tapi bangga! * tutup mata dengan baju,hihi.

then time magreb, aku berjaya berpuasa untuk hari ke-2! :D aku merungut, tapi mama ada je ckp, kalau mcm ni dosa la, kalau mcm tu dosa la, tapi mmg betul pun, sayang mama! * terasa mcm nak peluk mcm skrg ni! tapi mama dalam bilik, malas ah :P. mama buat soya bean untuk kakak, tenkiu mama!

WSHLIST1906

Yang pink! :D

INI SATU KEPERLUAN! :D haha saye nak dia nyanyi lagu "happy birthday" kat saye bolehhhh? dgn aksi gay dia sekali.

Sape yang bagi aku guitar ni on the 19th, dah tertera dalam bilik, mmg aku sayang smpai mati.

Dear single life,

may i be as strong as my other single friends? i think i would rather go solo, when he's just not that into me, i wouldn't be that effing cheap, well,i have to confess, i love him. do you think i'll survive this way? i think it so too. i can't wait to find some new things out there, i recalll, NEW THINGS. i really wanted to have a serious relationship with him, but luck, luck doesnt presents itself then. you know who you are, play.work.fun-mate :)

You could.

Hello, my name is Melissa Amiera

Im 17.

I hope I'll keep this blog and stickin' to it.

Dayam Mad.

Cant take my eyes off you - Muse

Vol : 100%

Someone,One Day, Aminn

*So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end.
*Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with.
-Kroager

*Nobody wants to be the last one there.
*Everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
*Someone to love with my life in their hands.
*There's gotta be somebody for me like that.
*Because nobody wants to do it on their own.
*And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
*There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
*There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

Amin.

Very very plastic words.

Kau dah cakap sorry kat aku, tapi kau buat lagi benda yang sama, baik tak payah apologize. Buang saliva and masa aku untuk mendengar. Byotch plastic.



KAU MEMANG BODOOOOOOOOH! DAN AKU TAK BODOH SANGAT TETAPI BAIK HATI KERANA MEMAAFKAN KESALAHAN KAU YANG PERMANENT DAN "sorry" KAU YANG TEMPORARY!

I think I swear

I will always love my Thurdayyyyyyyyyssssss! :D


My mood is really happy and balancing.

Happy Fill-in

I would [ buy and Apple iPod at Australia ] for [ 200 ] dollars.

If I had a [baby ] I’d name it [ Melissa Aurora].

My friend [ today ] is [ pregnant].

If I made a movie it would be about [ fat people] and I’d call it [ People with Fats.].

When I was [6 ] I was [a coward ].

My s/o (or ex) is such a [ whore]

Barack Obama [ is the underdog!].

Love is [ unpredictable].

If I was drunk I’d be more likely to [do it again].

If I could make my own man/woman, he/she would have [ long leg and arms], [ a guitar], and [ money and love and the moves on bed].

Everyone should take time to [ fuck alone, hehe].

If I could create my own heaven for when I die it would [ be pinkish].

This survey is [suitable for all ages] because [it's fucking clean :) ].

F words, serious.

Fuck,everything is fucking fine, myself is fucking great with my effing fucking attitude, im fucking tired when i need to here my fucking dudes babble, Fucking fuckers that intiminated me so fucking much and fucking annoying papers that are fucking miserable. Fucking to this fucking pc, fucking slow like a fucking poke.

... Feels fucking better :)


I told you the title is serious.

History Misery

Myyyyy, Ohhh myyyy, History paper 1 was not that hard la, but all of a sudden, dia tanya about chapter 2 form 5!If and only if I can talk to the paper!


Mel: Bitch, mengapa kau mesti muncul!
Unspoken Paper: Munis suruh ! :\ Damn.

*Note to self, whatever happens, your marks will be like Ayu's.

Failing Sailing fer Good.

My BM was more like sucky. I mean suck balls . I mean I dont know it sucks.

Specially For Broken-hearted People.

I'm sorry I fell for you
I'm sorry I asked you out
I'm sorry you hurt me
I'm sorry we spent time together
I'm sorry I held on to you
I'm sorry we kissed
I'm sorry we loved each other
I'm sorry you lied
I'm sorry I wanted you
I'm sorry we held each others hands
I'm sorry we walked in the rain
I'm sorry we took pictures
I'm sorry we made memories
I'm sorry I hurt you
I'm sorry I wasted my money
I'm sorry you wanted to die
I'm sorry we drifted apart
I'm sorry we sneaked around
I'm sorry we both wanted it
I'm sorry I let go
I'm sorry you were undetermined
I'm sorry we had differences
I'm sorry I was so stupid
I'm sorry we wasted time
I'm sorry we every met
I'm sorry you cant leave
I'm sorry I couldn’t say no
I'm sorry I talked to you that first day
I'm sorry it will never end


Mellsha Amiera.

:S

Why must things get so frustating in the end? Why can't we end something with joy? And minus the TEARS OF JOYNESS. That's shit.